Melancholic Rhetoric

2011-10-23T14:13:00.003+08:00

Heartbreakers:

Singapore Paintball Series 2011 Leg 2 Champions.

Singapore Paintball Series 2011 Overall Champion.

My last entry was dated October 1st Saturday. One week after that, is the Singapore Paintball Series 2011 Leg 2. And you can pretty much guess that this entry will be about it. And it'll be long nonetheless.

Singapore Paintball Series (SPS) 2011 Leg 2 was held at East Coast Park on the 8th and 9th of October. Since the first leg of the tournament was held in Jurong. It would only see fit, if this leg was brought over to the east side.

This Leg was really special. Due to the local paintball community gaining increased renown, it would only deem fit when the event would be graced by Acting Minister for Community Development Youth and Sports, MG (NS) Chan Chun Sing.

Not only that, Division 1 teams from Malaysia -- Team Xtioneers and Demonz Red would also be coming down for this event. They would be playing in the Open Division. And, they also would be playing in an All-Stars game against the All-Stars of Singapore paintball which would be watched by the Minister.

It would be great to go up against these Division 1 teams, these guys are technically semi-professional. Paid to play. I would be honoured if I could get on the All-star team to play against them. But then, I'm only a Novice Division player. The All-Stars are only open to Open division players. Maybe next year.

Following the series of unfortunate and depressing events leading up to SPS. I was determined to change things for the better and play at my best, if not, my very best for this tournament. Having clinched 2nd place for the previous tournament was not good enough for me. And I was psyched up to win this tournament. I was confident with my teammates, and also with the gameplan that we had.

So Saturday, we only played 4 qualifying games. Our first game was against the experienced Ragdolls. We won that. Not before we almost lost it. Their snake guy was already in snake 3. Our entire snake side was down and i had to trick that snake guy that i was in the dorito when i already moved up to the god, and shot him out from there.

2nd game was against Iscreamwar and the 3rd was against vengeance. Won both of those games as well.

The last qualifying game was against our closest rivals and defending champions, Rampage Onslaught. Very controversial game. Being a rivalry game, I sought out to shoot my marker non-stop, at a price. halfyway thru the game, i realised that I had run out of air. We already had an early G at the start of the game. But as soon as i ran out of air, all hell broke lose. Everyone was running all around the field, having run out of air, i figured that i had to bunker someone. So i ran up and got shot out. Then as i returned to the deadbox via the side, i could already hear zai saying "yes! yes!" from outside the field. When i reached the deadbox, Kenny was raging and hitting the starting frame. I didn't know what was going on. I only knew at that point of time that we had lost. And when were leaving the field, the head ref called all the refs over together with the captains of the teams, Kenny and Wayne. Some sort of discussion was going on. All in all. Despite our loss, we won..!! Kinda confusing right? After the dust settled, it came to my understanding that one of the rampage players played on despite being obviously hit, and the head ref clearly saw that. And said player went on to play and shot out both Kenny and CheeYong out. That's playing on and shooting not one, but 2 players out, changing the course of the game. A 2 for 1 penalty, so the result was overturned in our favour. So we won all 4 games on Saturday. A real good start to the weekend.

Sunday started off late even though we came early. We were to play our remaining 3 qualifying games and see if we would make it thru to the quaterfinal bracket. Our 4 wins on saturday gave us a good point advantage.

I was determined and focused to unleash it all on sunday. It's go hard, or go home. And i don't want to go home empty handed. Despite the sorrow and frustration of the past few weeks, I made it a point that i was going to channel all of that negativity to improve my performance on the field. The fuel to my fire.

So the first game on sunday was against Explicit. I remember myself running up from the home bunker, and going up to bunker snake 3 and i proceeded onto tonton down the snake and go up and shoot the last back left guy. So we won that.

I made such an impact with my moves that even Benguin and Greg had to congratulate me. I also remember Benny from Ballistics Aftermath asking who Fizzy was and shaking hands with me too. Looks like i'm out to make an impact *smirk*.

2nd game was against Ballistics Origins. It was a rather friendly game and we took them too lightly, we ended up losing that game. I remember getting shot out by a random ball.

3rd game was against a new team, Natural Born Killers, Being new, we didn't know how they played so they were a team to look out for. I wanted to somehow 'get revenge' on losing the previous game. Off the break, scott got laned out and their magic side front player managed to reach our 50s and was shooting at me. I was pinched in like mad. I had to do something. That guy went up to our 40s and so i made a move to go up and bunker him, i move up to the 50s where i shot another guy who was moving up. I wanted to shoot the home guy out too but he saw me coming up to him and shot me out first. But we won that game too.

After the qualifying games. We won 6 out of 7 games. And after everything, we were ranked 3rd, with ragdolls and ACES above us. We were put into a quarterfinal bracket together with Ragdolls, Blitzkrieg and Raving. All teams too watch out for.

First game against raving was rather easy though i got shot out early as i moved up to the brick. Won that game. Yazid had to leave us coz he had to go submit and present a project. So cheeyong was playing his position.

2nd game against Blitzkrieg was one to watch out for coz we lost to them at the previous tournament. They would clearly go for Kenny. I remember I had a ball break in my loader and i spent nearly all the time trying to clean it. Even the ref came up to me and asked whether the marker was good to shoot. I basically spent all the time in my bunker cleaning my marker up. We won 4 up

3rd game against Ragdolls wasn't easy. They shot out our front guys. We were already down to only me and kenny left. and I even had to fill in the snake where i was rather impressive. I was caught up with a snapshooting contest with Joshua of ragdolls

I ran up to bunker him out. but once i shot him out, he spun around and shot me. I turned over to the ref and was like "eyyy ref come on..!!".

The head ref called josh out and wiped me clean before i ran up to shoot out the remaining 2 guys out.. But then. i was unfortunate that i didn't have enough time to grab the flag and the game was held to a draw but with the ED in our favour.

Fortunately, we ranked top in our group and blitzkrieg took 2nd.

So in the semi-finals, we were up against Rampage Onslaught. We weren't supposed to meet them..!!! We were supposed to meet them in the finals!!! But ouhwell.. We were super confident coz we already had beaten them the previous day. And since the semi-finals was a race-to-2 game. we had to win twice against them. We were all over them in the first game. I remember laning their snake guy out, a new player to rampage. and we won the first game. Another game to win and we were thru to the finals.

Off the break i was laning out alot of people. Managed to shoot out the snake guy off the break again. I knew i shot alot coz i ran out of paint and was only left with a loader full. I even looked around to see how much pods I used. When i looked around. I saw the 4 pods that I brought it on the ground behind me. And cheeyong was also shouting that he had only 1 pod left. So i went up to the M and managed to shoot the last guy out of the dorito

I remember taking the flag and running it back. The first time i've ever hung a flag.

And Heartbreakers knocked out the defending champions and are now through to the finals.

Cheeyong was already celebrating like we won the tournament. He should be happy, this is the first time i'm playing with him. He missed out on the last leg. He should be happy. I remember coming out of the field and having Shark of Contract Killers put his arm around me and congratulating me. He noticed that I ran out of paint. I still rmb the words he said to me "When you run out of pods, that's a good thing, coz that's when you're laying down the firepower". Awesome encouragement.

We were up against Blitzkrieg in the finals.

The finals were later in the day. They still had to play Open division semi-finals, Corporate division bronze medal match as well as the final. They also had to play novice division bronze medal match which Rampage Onslaught took beating ACES. Open division also played their bronze medal match which Contract Killers won, beating Team Enraged. Awesome job Killers..!!

Throughout the waiting time. I was just sitting down by my lonesome. Taking a chair to watch the games. I was just lost in my own thoughts. There was the occasional shoulder rub from derek and yazid who told me to don't be so stressed up. I wasn't. I wasn't stressed up. I was just pumped up. I was just lost in my own thoughts. The realisation of where I am and where it would lead me to. Honestly, I had the feeling that my team would win it. I had no doubt about it. I knew we were going to be champions coz we deserved it. I deserved it. For all the shit that's happened in my life over the weeks leading up to this moment. It all cumulates into this one defining moment.

"Heartbreakers, Blitzkrieg to the tech area Finals Game 1"

The first game. We started off good but we lost a couple of guys and i rmb i had to fill in the snake again. I didn't know that there was only one guy left in the home dorito. It was only down to kenny and me again.

I was in the snake and kenny was on the magic side. I don't know what he did but he got shot out and i knew i was the only one left and i got shot right in the mouth!! I tasted the paint. it wasn't what we were hoping for. we were suppose to take away the first game but we lost it instead.

The 2nd game was about the same. they managed to draw our fire to the snake side. But we also managed to shoot a couple of guys out. I also had to fill in the snake corner and fill in the snake as well. But we ran out of time. so it was a draw.

We really really had to win the next game. I cannot settle for 2nd. I want first. I've had second. Time to get first. We were also running out of paint. I had to even ask from my darling syikin to give us some paint so we could use it for the final games.

Kenny was already raging. As per normal. I even had to tell him to calm the fuck down. It was no use to the team if he was raging at everyone, and most certainly no use to himself if he got shot out coz he made irrational moves. Kenny called me over and told me to run it thru the middle for the next game.

And so i did. 3rd game was win it or go home 2nd. which would really compromise us coz rampage who took 3rd place earlier was to get overall champion coz they were ahead by a few points if we took 2nd place. I rmb we did the HBK cheer and the moment we finished it, i turned around to do a stare down with Blitzkrieg. intimidating them.

So i ran it up thru the middle. Adrenaline pumping slide into the middle. I could lock down the snake side and switch it up and lock down the magic side as well.

So i kept the snake guy really busy and Blitzkrieg were trying their best to get me out. That drew fire from them which allowed my teammates to move up

They managed to get all the guys out and it was only left to one guy in the home dorito where i ran up to him and gave him 3 shots to the back of his neck. That sealed it. 1 win and 1 draw in the finals.

it was sudden death, no time limit, 4th game to win it all. Everyone was helping crew for us. Fazrul from Contract Killers was on hadn to lend us some pods as well. Faizal from ACES was on hand to wipe me and my teammates clean and also to pod us up. Even Kiko came up to us and gassed up our markers as well as lent me his mask coz the mirrored lens on mine was too dark and it was already getting late and we were losing light.

This was it. I've come this far with my teammates. As I looked at them, I knew they were gonna give their all as much as I would give them mine. This was it. One game to win it all... or lose it.

4th game. Same gameplan. Run it up thru the middle. Their snake guy was prepared for me. So he kept me locked down, but that opened up an opportunity for jordan to move up the snake. I rmb switching sides to the magic side. And i saw that there was a guy in my mirror in the brick. I had to get him out coz he was onto jordan in the snake. I just had to get him out. I rmb seeing kenny on my right side in the 40 aztec. I signalled to him that i was gonna bunker the guy infront of me and i did the slit the throat gesture indicating that if i was to do that, i was going to get shot out. I didn't know if he understood what i was saying but i did it anyway. I ran up the middle, shot that guy in the brick out and proceeded to run up to the backright to get him out too. But he saw me and managed to shoot me but i was moving at such a fast speed that i was falling when he shot me and i remember falling head first onto my marker tank. As i lay there on the ground. The ref picked me up and brought me to the side. I could hear my teammates wrapping things up, the chaos i caused was enough diversion for them to make the push forward.

As i sat there in the dead box alone. I just sat down. Leaning against the netting. This was it. I had done my best for my team. It was up to them to mop things up. I didn't even dare to take a peek out to see how things were doing. I just sat there. Then there was silence and next thing u know. I saw cheeyong hang the flag over me.

"TIME!!"

"GAME OVERRR..!!!"

This was it..!! This was it..!! We won..!! We WON..!! Heartbreakers clinched the top spot for the novice division. I started breaking down into tears like I knew I would. This is it. Champion. Overall Champion.

I picked up my pods. and walked out of the field. But the head ref called me to sign the gamesheet, coz kenny had already left the field.

As I parted the netting to get out the field. Scott was there to greet me. So i hugged him. Then derek came up to me. he took the pods away. and we hugged. I didn't say anything at all. I just took off my harness and dumped it into the loader box then walked out. Yazid was like "lah lah lah.. leave him alone.. ".. I just walked out the players area with my mask still on. I was crying silently.

The realisation just sank in. I've won it. I've given my all for this tournament. Was fate so merciless? Did I had to lose her just to win this? It's just not fair. You Lose Some, You Gain Some. Those words keep on ringing in my head. It's just so so damn sad. I found a nice spot to lie down. And finally took off my mask and my beanie and my headband. I just held my head in my hands and wept. The impact of the realisation really hit me hard. I wasn't sad like last time. Last time, I was sad coz i was so close to winning. But this time it's different.

I was joined by derek and benguin. They asked me why i cried. And I told them. I told them abt her. Benguin felt so touched he even asked me to stop coz it's starting to make him cry too. Funny. ahahaha.

My team eventually joined me outside. But they left me alone to gather back my senses. The rest of the Contract Killers came up to me congratulating me on our win.

Then one by one. My teammates came up to me. I remember chee yong coming up to me and asking me why i cried, and I told him about her. He was quite shocked, coz he had met her on 2 occasions -- one for the time she came down for training, and the other where she came down the day before. He didn't expect that we weren't together. I remember Kenny coming up to me. I still remember his words. I knew he thanked me for joining the team. He told me about him giving up hope on the team and considering to join Red 7s ever since zai left the team. He thanked me again coz ever since I've joined the team, Heartbreakers have improved and achieved alot. 2nd place last time round. And now. Double Champions.

Ouh yah. Having won champions for this leg. We are also Overall Champions this year.

Prize presentation up next. Gosh was it so fun and exciting. But of course. We're now champions. The podium finishers of the other different divisions were up first. Then came my division. The runner's up were announced and presented their medals. Then came our turn.

Novice Division Champions -- HEARTBREAKERS..!!!!

Gosh. That rumbling feeling of going up to get the champion medal. Contract Killers were going "H-B-K!! H-B-K!! H-B-K!! AAWOOO AWWOOO AWWOOO ".Awesome cheer..

I lined up last to take the medal. My teammates before me. It was a great feeling to have the champion medal put around my neck by Ben Todo Boggy from Demonz Red.

And then we were also presented the Champion Trophy as well as the Overall Champion Trophy.

We didn't take as much photos as compared to the first leg coz brinda was too caught up in crewing for us.

Then it was our turn to cheer for Contract Killers.

After that, it got dark really fast. So we had to take our things out of the players area to somewhere with much more light.

I remember i was with Jordan and he said something that i was kinda surprised. He thanked me for joining the team. For making the team as awesome as it is now. =D

This is it. One of the longest entries I have ever written. This is the emotions and details of that weekend. A weekend of awesomeness. A weekend where champions were made.

All thanks go to our sponsors Paintballers World, Red Dynasty Paintball Park. Thanks to Ben Seow, Jane Koh, Arthur Chan, Jose Cerda and many others is helping us during our trainings leading up to this event. Many thanks to the staff of Red Dynasty Paintball park, Damian Li and Kiko.

Through thick and thin. My teammates were there for me. And I was there for them. I was quite surprised how well I did. I just let instinct took over and just unleashed it all. I have managed to turn some heads with my performance. And I have proved my worth to the team.

I still don't know why everyone is pointing at me.. *smirk*

The scary thing is, we're only gonna get better.

Like I mentioned in my earlier SPS Leg 1 post.

Everyone will remember The Heartbreakers.

And everyone will know my name.

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2011-10-01T22:28:00.000+08:00

Consider it as a waking up call.

Certain things did not turn out as I had expected. Such pain to let go. But circumstances deem otherwise. Definitely I will take some time to get over this. Definitely.

But through the excrutiating frustration, helplessness and pain, lay something of a wake up call. Though it really kinda hit quite hard, it is the hard, ugly truth.

In the competitive world today, it's all about the qualifications that make you successful. In this world, it's all about the money. It's all about being able to provide for yourself and maybe also for your family, if you come to decision to start one. It's all bout being good enough.

And currently, i'm don't have much of any of the above. I cannot provide. I'm not good enough. That's the hard, ugly truth.

For all the negativity and angst and anger. Lies a drive I've never felt before. A drive to prove all of the doubters wrong. That I am capable of something. I know it. I can feel it inside of me. I want to be successful. I want to be so successful that when one day, when all these doubters meet me on the street and see that I am successful. I want them to regret. I want them to regret ever having the smallest hint of doubt in me.

I want to get a university degree. Yes I want to. I really want to. That's what seems to be the qualification that everyone wants and would offer me a better range of job opportunities.

There are a wide variety of choices to choose from. But over the past week, I've met friends who have got me thinking of the choice of degree that I should take. These friends are taking/ have taken courses that are entirely different from what they studied before.

It's more of choosing a degree that has a very good offer of a wider range of job opportunities. Like what the market demands now. I do have some in mind.

But for all the choosing and selecting, it all boils down to whether I can manage to get admitted into a university. My GPA score is not that good enough to secure a degree.

But for all that, I know of a friend who didn't pursue a degree. In fact, he dropped out of a good degree course cause he lost all interest in it and found a better calling which suited him. And now, he's really succesful. Just bought a car. And still young. He is sort of an inspiration to me that it is possible to be successful without holding a degree.

I really really aim to be successful. This drive in me, it's really positive and I kinda like it.

I really hope things will work out for me. And I hope that this drive never dies in me no matter the obstacles that I face. For all the hope that I have. It really feels that I have hit rock bottom now.

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2011-09-05T00:22:00.000+08:00

Looky looky..

I haven't updated in some time. I'm kinda lazy. But i realised that this blog, which has been going on since 2006, has tracked my progress through my life. It's ups and downs. My chain of thoughts. Especially this part. I've noticed how my chain of thoughts has evolved over the years. Matured actually.

Ouh well. So this blog will be up and running. But honestly, it will be with less-than-frequent updates.

And so the most important update on my life now would be that i have finished my mandatory national service. Yeah. I'm back to being a civilian again.

On one side, I am glad that I have finished national service. Honestly, my stint as a sergeant was one of the most stressful times of my life yet. And i'm relieved that it's now all over.

But as one ends, another begins. My life is now thrown into limbo. I had it all planned out. End of service, i go into NIE, and juggle that and work at Red Dynasty to get extra income. But that didn't happened.

So now, i'd have to wait again until next year to try my luck again, hopefully this time i'll get it. Dumb interview.

Right now, I'm working part-time at red dynasty and that doesn't do much just cause for my income. Get a fulltime job? Nahh. i won't coz i have made up my mind to go for Paintball World Cup Asia happening in Langkawi in November. If I took up a full-time job, I don't think I would get overseas leave for 5 days in November given that I just started on the job. So i'm taking it easy for now.

But the easy part never was easy. As I mentioned earlier, a part-time job can't sustain me. I'm like barely living on the income I get from the part-time job.

I hope I can last with what I earn. It has to last.

But for all the sad, sorry things that are happening in my life..

Something good has happened over the last month leading to my ORD.

Something real good. And I want it to last. =)

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2011-06-29T22:01:00.006+08:00

A lot of people have been asking me about the thumb and index finger hand sign that i've been doing in the latest pics on my facebook and especially seeing my paintball team doing it.. like every single member of The Heartbreakers had a form of the sign..

Here's another picture of me rocking the "H" handsign

First and foremost. It is not a gang sign. LOL!! Does anyone call that 2 finger, peace sign a gang sign..? apparently not. So the handsign that i do has absolutely no relation to any gangs our secret societies.

Basically the aforementioned handsign consists of the thumb and index finger in a L shape. But with both hands doing it so it forms sort of a |_|

This handsign is basically the top half of the letter "H".. and when an up and down movement is done, it will form a letter "H"..

So what's up with this "H" handsign, people ask. For those unfamiliar, I would just tell them it's "H". The initial for my name Hafiz.

But for the well-informed and those that i bothered to explain to. This "H" handsign represents the HK Army.

Then it leads to another question. What is this HK Army?? Being asian, most people would just blurt out "Does HK stand for Hong Kong..?? ".. Hong Kong being a popular holiday destination for asians.

It's a NO..!! HK Army does not stand for Hong Kong Army..

The HK in HK Army stands for Hostile Kids. So, HK Army means Hostile Kids Army.

And then another question: What's this Hostile Kids Army..??

Essentially, the Hostile Kids are a paintball team which exists today but by the official name of Hollywood Hostile Kids..

Hollywood Hostile Kids?? Then wat about HK Army??

Here comes the part. HK Army is basically the supporters of the Hostile Kids movement.. What is this movement people will ask..

The Hostile Kids were a paintball team that existed in the past, and were infamous for their lackadaisical and unprofessional approach to paintball. They basically went up against the best paintball teams in the world knowing that they'll get the crap beaten out of them but yet they were at it again the next week, and the week after, and the week after the next..

Basically, despite being beaten by every known paintball team that plied it's trade in the paintball mecca of California, the Hostile Kids still kept on coming back.

Officially the team disbanded due to political/business issues. We all know how that goes.

But one thing's for sure. The spirit that the Hostile Kids brought to the paintball scene never died. It never will. It will always be there.

What is this spirit that i'm talking about..?? This is the spirit of loving the sport for the sport. Supporters of this spirit became known as the HK Army. So much so, that it became a movement.

The HK Army movement is about people, not only kids, who play for the love of the game and do whatever it takes for the opportunity to come down to a field to play paintball. It's getting out with your friends and just tearing it up on the paintball field.

The HK Army is about people who see the sport of paintball as more than just a hobby, it's something more serious and they wish to live it everyday. These people make the effort to come down often to practice in order to become better. Because paintball means alot more to them. Paintball no longer becomes a sport. It becomes more than a sport. It becomes a lifestyle.

So you can say that the HK Army is just one big paintball team. And the answer to this is no. The HK Army is a movement. It's about getting together with people who you don't necessarily share the same beliefs and feelings as you, but all the share the same cause and do what you have to do to keep it going. And that cause is Paintball.

And HK Army is often, if not always, represented with that "H" handsign almost often accompanied with a verbal HHHHHHH.. Like whenever you're feeling happy and jovial you put up that 2 finger peace sign like mentioned earlier. Likewise, when we're feeling "HHHH".. we put up the "H" handsign.. This "HHH" feeling is basically the feeling of bringing that HK Army movement.. That feeling of giving your all for the thing that you love the most and that is paintball..

The "H" handsign can be represented in many forms as shown by The Heartbreakers here in this pic..

The HK Army movement has been brought up such a huge fanbase that the original members of Hostile Kids have set up an entire clothing line just for it -- PBfashion. Selling all stuff HHHH.. From T-shirts with many forms and graphics embodying the HHH movement on it, to headbands, sandanas, sunglasses, stickers, even carabiners.

The HK Army is often represented by it's most common form "HK Army" as commonly seen on it's headbands and also a pirate skull with the initials "HK" emblazoned on the skull like this:

So here's me, explaining what the HK Army movement is all about. So the next time u see me, or any other form of HK Army, don't be afraid to just put up your hands in the "H" handsign and go HHHHHHH..

here's a pic of the Pros rocking the HHHH..

Bobby Aviles and Zack Wake of Team Infamous...

Hafiz HHHHHHHH |_ (^.^) _|

2011-04-18T17:22:00.016+08:00

Heartbreakers Singapore Paintball Series 2011 Novice Category (Division 4) Runner's Up.

Epic epic weekend.

The past weekend was the Singapore Paintball Series 2011 Leg 1 held at Jurong Central Park. Being in Jurong, and this close to where I stay. It was rather like a home event.

Saturday was qualifying rounds. So we had 5 matches to play. The first against our arch-rivals and also defending champions Rampage Onslaught. We lost that one. in total for saturday we won 3 games and lost 2. Really really compromising our run for the crown.

It was do or die on Sunday. We had a remaining 3 qualifying games to go thru. We won 1. Lost 1 and drew 1. So our chances of making it to the quaterfinal bracket was really like sitting on the edge of a cliff.

And we made it. By a point difference of one. We made it thru to the quaterfinal bracket with the last ranking, 8th. Our quaterfinal bracket consisted of (again) Rampage, Lunatics and Explicit. All teams that we've met in the qualifying round. In the qualifying round we lost to lunatics too.

We could only manage one loss and 2 wins to make it thru to the semifinals. The one loss would have to only come from rampage. But we lost our first quaterfinal game against lunatics again. Kenny was already doubting our chances. To him, it was like a repeat of the past SPS. The past SPS, The Heartbreakers didn't manage to go thru past the quaterfinals. We won our next game against Explicit. And we were left with our last quaterfinal game against rampage. And guess wat. We won that.

It was a major uplift for the team. I could clearly see that the win against Rampage meant alot to my team. We now had to wait and hope that explicit could beat lunatics for us to go thru to the semi-finals. And guess what.. That happened and The Heartbreakers stepped into a region they've never been in before. The Semi-finals.

We were up against Team ACES who were ranked overall 2nd. Semi-final onwards, all the games were played best of 3. Since we're in unchartered territory. Kenny was like telling us to "give our best" kinda motivation. We lost our first game. That was a real hammer blow to the team. But somehow. I just had to put it some never say die attitude to the team. Hell. If we're gonna lose. We're gonna do it with style. And in the 2nd game, We won. Bringing it to a 1-1. Putting us straight into the 3rd game to win it.

We brought the same mentality and heart into the last game and we won it..!! Cementing our place in the Final..!! Guess Team ACES wasn't prepared for what we were throwing at them. The revitalised effort that we threw at them was kinda shocking..

We were thru into the Finals against Rampage Onslaught, the defending champions.

Everyone was rooting for us. Our closest team, Contract Killers was rooting for us, after they clinched 4th in the Open Division. The Staff of Red Dynasty were in full support for us too.

This was it. A chance at being champions. Finals of the SPS 2011 Leg 1. My first ever paintball tournament and I'm already into the Final. I've never achieved such heights in archery or soccer. This was a first for me. And i wanted it so badly. Really really wanted it.

We lost the first game. But not after i put on a prolonged fight from the back centre, in the home bunker. The rest of my team were already eliminated. And i was the only one left alive against 4 others. I put up such a fight with so much heart. I took out 2 guys while at it. Switching sides. And gunfighting. I was holding it down for quite some time. But i was eventually bunkered out. We were demoralised.

But BBen came over to us while we were waiting for our 2nd game. Guess he really really wanted us to win too. He gave us such a inspiring motivational speech. It was so inspiring that we won the 2nd game with 5 man alive.

That brought it level. It was a real do or die moment. It was gonna be a fairytale ending for me.

My return to paintball.

My first paintball tournament.

Now I'm in the finals. So close to getting it.

And it all came crashing down as fast as the 10second countdown. A dubious call by a certain "infamous" referee.. that pulled a penalty on us. My instantaneous fill in was also penalised. And my whole fairytale ending came crashing down like a meteor. I was real upset and distraught. Even if we had to go lose. It wasn't like this. Not like this.

I just crouched there in the deadbox. Head held low. My teammates standing around me. Yazid was already consoling me. I could hear Rampage clearing the field. Literally lighting up the home bunker. Guess they lost their G-count and were afraid of a repeat of the fight I put up against them from the last point that they took.

Game Over. It was all over as well. I picked up the pods that I used. And walked around the field to shake the referees hands.. Contract Killers-SG were shouting "HEARTBREAKERS!!!", and the rest of the crowd were cheering for us.. And I instantaneously broke down. I was crying behind my mask. Dismantled my rotor from the marker. Passed it to Damian. Shook his hand. I could see that he was also sad with our loss. Sofie gave me a pat on my back. He was from Rampage but still he's my friend. It just had to be that our players' area was right next to rampage's..

I just sat down and wept. All my teammates were consoling me. it was a real heartbreak for me..

A heartbreak for a Heartbreaker..

The championship slipped thru our fingers. It felt like I let everyone down.

It took some time for me to console and compose myself.

It really helped that Yazid, Derek and Greg as well as many others were there to console and told me it was alright, and that we're gonna get it the next time.

after that it was prize presentation.

after we cleaned up. Some of us went to jurong point KFC for dinner together with Fuzz. Talked about the events of the weekend.

So many will ask why does any of this even matter?

It matters because of all that you put into it.

It matters because that plastic trophy represents a nearly unquantifiable collection of hours spent practicing, getting shot, arguing with each other, and waking up early despite the previous day's physical toll for the chance that everything can crystallize into something tangible.

And it matters because it's hard.

It matters so much that even after a crushing defeat. Making it all the way to the doorstep of your dream, only to see everything that you've worked for smashed to pieces.

And you're gonna come back and do it all over again..

Heartbreakers SPS 2011 Novice Category (Division 4) Runner's Up.

I'm definitely gonna build up on this.

Now i know where i stand amongst others.

After the events of the past weekend.

Everyone will remember The Heartbreakers.

And everyone will know my name..

2011-04-05T18:15:00.003+08:00

Why do you have to appear in my dreams when my mind and body are at it's weakest..?

Why do you have to appear in my dreams when i was never thinking of you at all..?

Why do you appear at all..?

I haven't been thinking bout you. Lots of things occupying my mind now. Paintball, the army, my return to archery, my future after army.

Why do you have to appear?

Why do you always have to appear when i'm on the verge of completely forgetting bout you..?

Is there something behind it..?

2011-03-25T10:50:00.004+08:00

EPIC WEEKEND PART 2

Sunday 200311

Had another heartbreakers training. Full team was down. Our main training objective of the day was to skirmish. To test our communication on the field, our strategy and how we worked as a team, having 2 new players, one of them being me and the other scott, playing with the team..

so we started w the usual. morning breakfast w the team at khatib mcdonald's. then going over to the field together. a couple of teams were around. ballistics was around along with a new team, killer clowns. so we gathered our paint. did the normal warmups then a bit of drills.

first game was against killer clowns. rather epic on this part coz yazid's marker wasn't working and we were already lined up at the starting gate. so we had to play one man short. so instead of me playing snake (jordan was late as usual). i played snake back. our only attacking option was derek on the non-snake side.

broke out quite well. i finally got it how to aim using the barrel. somehow it just came to me. guess u really do pick up these small details when u play more often. the killer clowns had an e-marker w 'em and we were one guy short. the odds were stacked against us. i managed to hold down the snake side from the back. and derek managed to get the snake guy out. eventually. we won the game. amazing. so for the next game. i reffed and yazid played. same results again. we won!!

amazing!! that means our training has really benefited us.

i really think these new teams need to read up on the most basic of paintball rules. the penalties.. i just pulled a 3 for 1 for this joker that wiped right in front of me..!!

watched a couple of other matches when other teams came down, reapers and the most-profresionally-run paintball team - the outlaws.

we had a couple of good after action reviews. discussing our tactics and such.

the last game of the day for our team was a game w a mix of outlaws and killer clowns.

epic game. i was tasked to try and play back. i used a marker w danny's furious barrel on it. ubercool.

so we had jordan playing snake and yazid playing his back. scott playing the other front and kenny playing his back.

game on. tried to lane off the snake side but the gravity hopper was in consistent in feeding balls. scott was rather kept busy w 3 guns on him. jordan made a move to the centre dorito, away from the snake side when he saw an opponent take the mirror centre dorito. jordan managed to take out the opposite front guy and also the guy that made the move to the centre dorito. jordan eventually got taken out by their snake guy. so yazid filled into the centre dorito. we had an opponent in the snake side and we had none in it.

the guy managed to get to snake2 and yazid was yelling it out loud. he was posting up on snake2. then i moved up to the snake insert can. the guy moved up to snake3 and was gunfighting yazid and shot yazid out when the epic moment happened.

i started a run from the back, bunkered the snake guy out then moved up into the opposite snake insert can just when i caught a glimpse of someone moving into the backcentre. so i sidestepped to the left and shot the last guy out of that bunker.

woooo...!!! epic..!! a run from the back.. bunkered the snake out.. moved up to the can and shot the last guy out..!! all in one smooth run down from the back!! awesome..!!

instinct just took me over and i just let it all happen!! that was like a jon richardson-mike paxson move mann..!! it was an hhhhhh...!!! moment.

it was so epic-ly awesome i still had the adrenaline pumping thru me..!! my team was elated at the overall performance.. we were so hyped up that we were like small excited kids trying to explain wat happened. u can see it in some of the facebook pics.. damn epic..!! even jane commended me on the move i made.. it was an awesome game and the other teams were watching too..

sadly. we didn't get to play against ballistics who have a good snake player.

so this is it.

heartbreakers is here to make an impact.

watch out for us at sps leg 1 - jurong central park.

2011-03-24T20:34:00.009+08:00

EPIC WEEKEND PART 1

Saturday 190311

Had guard duty on friday.. pfffttt... that means a bookout on saturday morning. meaning my weekend gets cut short..

Didn't sleep the entire night on duty. Adlan was already gone on the ops box. Couldn't sleep. Entertained myself with the cool, awesome TV coverage of the PSP Galveston Island event. Each match was like at least 45minutes long. Watching the matches were a great time waster and also great for me to watch the pros play as well as to hear the advice given by one of the paintball legends , Matty Marshal, and his guest co-commentator..

So i booked out on saturday. Kinda late coz i took the ferry in to change in CV clothes. Had a quick half an hour nap. Certainly not enough. I totally gone-ed in the train ride. But before that i fixed a lunch meetup with kai and guolong coz they were shooting back in SP. Somehow managed to wakeup before reaching dover.

Went to the field. Not many ppl around. Most of the archers were at NTU IAC. So had a quick snack with GL and Rachel while waiting for the ever late Kailin and Shwajuan to arrive.

So i had a great catching up session with both GL and Rachel.. Never seen them since before the standard chartered marathon. That's like before december last year. ouh wait. i did come for SP Open. But they were rather busy too. So we just sat there and just had a nice talk cock session. We laughed, we joked. Guess GL really misses me coz rachel said that GL wasn't as crazy before i came.. LOL!!

Guolong said that he'd resume shooting after lunch. But he didn't. LOL! He just sat there with rachel talking cock with me.. Suddenly said that he'd rather wait until the 2 late girls came then he would start shooting. Ahahahha.. so the girls came really late.. so we had some time to chitchat.

Finally the two came, so we had lunch then i went back home. Supposed to go fishing with Ryan but the weather was real bad..

So that's all i had for this saturday..

2011-02-14T22:27:00.007+08:00

Yet again..

I'm torn between archery and paintball..

The moment I got motivated and inspired to give archery another try, to give it as much committment as I did in the past, I get torn away again. Blown away by the adrenaline rush of paintball. Swayed by the infinite possibilities that the sport provides. The multitude of experiences.

I had a great day of paintball yesterday. Had a couple of good skirmishes with team biltz again. They're real damn nice to play against. But the main highlight would be the end of the day drills i had with Big Ben and Darren. It was nice. I waited quite some time, till nearing the end of the day, to let everyone leave the field before I approached Ben to help me with some drills.

He taught us a bit of the fundamentals every player should have. He's mainly a back player, so he taught us back player stuff.. But he did his best to share with us his experiences of watching how people play the snake and i daresay some of the tricks were damn good..

Also had a nice chat with Ben about team sponsorships and how the Red Sevens have been playing in overseas tournaments. He told me about how Dye has helped alot with his team and also the development of paintball in Singapore.

Maybe Heartbreakers could get a sponsorship. Either Eclipse or Dye.

Coming back to the initial topic. I have spent a significant amount of time playing paintball with the coming of the new year. it's like twice every month. And archery. Rainy season. Exams. No field booking. I haven't shot this year yet. That's how sad it is. And watching SP Open. Yes. It does bring tinglings in the upper extremities of how it felt like to compete. The memories of it all. Watching the other teams compete. *sigh*. I've never really been good at archery at all. Nothing won out of it for the past 4 years participating in the sport. Nothing at all.

So is it still worth pursuing the sport anymore..?

2011-01-25T10:20:00.005+08:00

I never thought i'd be writing this down..

But, unfortunately and sadly, it has come to the point in my life where I begin to question my continued involvement in the sport of archery.

I've always dreamt of winning big in archery. Really big. But that's not gonna happen - really. I've never won anything in any local tournament before and that speaks alot of my ability at this sport. Nothing at all. But I have taught several people to achieve medals and trophies at tournaments. I'm not good at actually shooting but only at coaching.

I've always told myself that not everybody has the talent to instantly pickup a recurve bow and shoot well with it, some people have to work hard to be good. I'm one of those that has to work hard. And I've been working hard for the past few years. And nothing seems to improve.

But it's not entirely based on that. It's more about my social circle. In archery, the social circle is rather limited. Look at it this way, for the sport of archery. A person's social circle would only expand if an archer would participate in tournaments and competitions where they would meet archers from different clubs. But what about those none competitive archers? Those that just like the sport as a recreational one. The only way for them then to increase their social circle is when new members join the club.

And with that, the hours spent at archery really is a great committment into someone's life. And it does take away a chunk of it.

The downside to archery is that for any prolonged absence from the sport, it will have a adverse affect on the person's performance. And not everyone is that free.

Already army has taken alot of my time and sometimes it goes over into the weekends. And since archery is mostly done on the weekends. I haven't been going archery for quite some time. In addition to that, the field bookings isn't consistent. Sometimes there's field maintenance and exams where there's no booking but i'm available.

Now I've spent quite some time at paintball.. The atmosphere and company there is just simply awesome. I really like it there. The sport is great too. Is damn fun and the adrenaline rush is phenomenal. Kinda reminds me of soccer. But it's much much more than soccer. It's much more aggressive than that. And the thing is, the aggression is legal. And that ups the intensity of the adrenaline. Making it all more fun.

The thing about paintball is that the social circle is ever growing. I get to meet new people every single time I go down to play. And that's just great. I get to meet people from all walks of life. From upper class businessmen, airline cabin crew, students. accountants ( lol ). All sorts really.

most importantly I get to meet GIRLS..!! okay. it sounds horny and desperate. But hey, i'm a guy.

The reason why i get to meet new people from paintball is precisely the fact that the only tournament field in singapore is the same place where customers come to play paintball.. And the place is not so big. So the tournament players sometimes catch the eye of the customers. Some returning customers recognise you then the approach you and ask more of the sport. making new friends in the process. And these returning customers, they eventually become tournament players joining the ever expanding sport of paintball. The plus point is, there's no need to even go to a tournament to make new friends.

Paintball is a much more athletic and adrenaline rushing sport. Pretty much like my old favourite, soccer. There's running, diving and sliding. Making it much more dynamic than archery. Keeping fit in the process as well. As for archery, it's rather static. Standing on the spot and only working out the upper body. Any other way of keeping fit in archery is to do supplementary running outside of the range.

Financial wise. Both sports are equally expensive. For archery, the costs of the equipment are high, with each component costing the hundreds, well at least for the good quality ones. And a typical set costs at least $2000. My set costs about 2.7k. And as time goes by, with the improvement of technology, new items roll out of the factories and these don't come cheap. Okay. So if you get a set. That's all you ever need.

Paintball requires forking out dollars for every trip down to play. But for that adrenaline rush and the means of keeping fit. I'm okay with it. And it doesn't amount to such big of an expense as compared to archery. Each trip costs about 70bucks. And for now, the SPLAT X package provided by Red Dynasty Paintball Park, provides a good rental programme for paintballers. That's like from 1k to 2.5k for the level of rental programme and 250bucks for renewal. That's a good package. But I have yet to enter the programme.

The things that's really making me think about this is the social circle and the fitness that the different sport provides. And from that, paintball looks like it's up on the plus side now. It's kinda sad to leave archery, I've spent so much time on it. But like everything in life, we must move on.

But I'm leaving time to allow me to decide.

If you, the reader, has any opinion about this matter. Feel free to let me know.

2011-01-21T23:06:00.003+08:00

I CAUGHT MY FIRST FISH FOR THE YEAR 2011..!!!

Initially went to Paintballer's World to get SPLAT but then i forgotten to bring a passport sized photo.. Or rather even knew i had to get one for SPLAT application.. I could have gotten in then by going to a ID photo kiosk but i was already short of time for my fishing trip..

Went to jurong lake northern side. Met matt a.k.a guitalk.. he just arrived too so we started fishing together.. he saw my casting form and taught me a better way of casting. a much more effortless way of casting.. had to practice it.. finally got the hang of it.. we fished at his favourite spot but unfortunately.. we got nothing.. so we slogged it out for 2 hours.. casting and casting.. but no bite at all..

until about 715pm.. i decided to move out from that spot and try elsewhere.. and OMG i caught a big peacock bass...!!! was quite shocked too.. the line like twitched twice irregularly then i quickly set the hook.. and there it was..!! a big peacock bass.. it was real big.. rather pale coloured but big.. so i retrieved it to shore..

only to have my inpatience allow the fish to take a leap of the bank and throw the hook.. GODDAMN..!!! I LOST THE FISH..!!!

But at least i got it..!! PHEW.. a real sigh of relief..!! the rapala clankin' crank works.. time to get more colours of it.. or maybe even the crankin' minnow.. need to get more bright, striking colours as matt told me..

that fish marked the end of my fish drought.. i haven't caught a fish in a very very long time.. and today was a good day.. even though i didn't managed to hold that fish in my hands.. it's a sign of hope for my fishing, that i'm doing it right.. and also a sign of hope for jurong lake..

till then..

Tight Lines

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2011-01-10T17:36:00.002+08:00

I've started watching GLEE.

It's a great series. i thought it was something about high school musical since EVERYONE keeps telling me that. But it really isn't.

Glee really addresses the daily issues of teenagers going thru that phase in their adolescence. The raging hormones. Being Popular and such. And they couple all these problems with great mash-ups of music which expresses these emotions.

yeah. Think that's the way to put it. Expression.

Glee is all about expression. It's about not being afraid to express one's self.

And i think it really compliments my new year resolution. =)

go and try watching Glee if you haven't. it's real nice. Even though Rachel Berry can be a pain in the ass with her self-centeredness. the other characters really balances it out.. especially them Cheerios.. *slurps*

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2011-01-03T16:35:00.000+08:00

Before the new year ended, I went to Universal Studios Singapore with compliments from BMTC. They got us the tickets. Real nice place. though it is kinda small but hey, it's only PART of Resorts World Sentosa.

Sentosa really did go through a real big and fast revamp since the last time i went there. Now it really looks like a resort island.

USS was fun especially the part where we went with our buddies from camp. An impromptu cohesion and the first cohesion without anything to do with the army. Great place. Would definitely go back there again. Maybe with my girlfriend (if i can get one..!! xD ).

Just a point to take note. If u really wanna enjoy the place. Go get the Express tickets. it costs more but it really pays off. Every ride has a super duper long queue which can snake around the whole building. and adjacent to this main queue which is for the normal tickets, there's an Express queue where pple have a shorter queue and can get to the ride faster. Sure beats waiting an hour for a one minute ride.

USS's a real great place. the battlestar galactica rollercoaster is still on trail. so the only good ride was the Mummy rollercaster. Real unpredictable.. Damn nice.. lol.. if u happen to go there. u MUST try,

2011-01-01T22:15:00.002+08:00

Hello hello 2011.

The year of my ORD. ehehehe.

okay. like every entry that i make at the start of the new year. It's time for me to reflect back on the events, happenings and emotions of the past year - 2010.

lemme see.

I started 2010 in NS, in SCS. Got to realise the emotion of hating the world. Where you've worked so hard and the results show but you don't get what you've worked so hard for. epic time.

2010 was a year which really tested out my mettle, my mental focus, my physical tolerance. I pushed myself to heights i never thought i could reach. All of these of course, through the army.

I went to Thailand for Exercise Crescendo. A real test. The hottest and driest condition i've ever been in. A place where I know who my real friends were. A place that weeded out the strong from the average. That size and physique don't matter, it's the mind within that counts.

A place where I found out from my friends how having someone was a real motivation to them. That they pushed themselves to the limit so that they can go home in good health to them. Then what motivated me to push along with them? I don't know. I still don't.

A place where friendships were cemented. A place where I saved some people's lives. I cringe at the thought of it. The feeling of helplessness as you look into their glassy thousand-yard-stare eyes. I don't like it at all.

Thailand did something to me. It changed me.

Now i'm posted back to where it all began -- Pulau Tekong. Home of Basic Military Training.

Of course, i gained new friends.

I learnt how to fish and became addicted to it and now it's become one of my hobbies. i got ryan addicted to it too.

Speaking of hobbies. I picked up paintball again. I'm in a team called Heartbreakers together with yazid. I like this team. I'll do my best to bring it up tops. I figured that paintball was the only avenue for me to let go of all the aggression in me. I can't let it just subside by doing fishing and archery. I need to let it loose.

as for archery. i've been coaching geraldine. she's been doing well. She won quite a number of medals after i taught her. But i'm trying to slowly not teach her, let terriss do the coaching. His coaching's conflicting with mine so i don't wanna ruin things for her. So i'm hoping this long absence i have from archery due to a real bad case of weekend training and duty, coupled with field maintenance, will slowly drift her away to terriss' teachings. I really have to do some supplementary archery training on my own to keep myself in shape. I kinda miss archery. This year. I'll go for archery more.

I've made a lot of great friends this year. and spent more time with friends that i already have. i've considerably spent alot of time with ryan the past year. spent doing lots of things. fishing especially. lol.

orh ya.. and about running. i've never participated in so much running events in a year before.

There's the 10km Army Half Marathon. Then there was Nike 10km run. Then there was the main highlight of my running calendar last year -- the Standard Chartered Marathon.

I've already signed up for 2 runs for this year. the 12km 2XU run and sundown marathon. I'll most definitely sign up for Standard Chartered this year once registration opens.

hmm.. lemme see what high-key events that i'll have this coming year?

12km 2XU run. sundown marathon. Standard chartered marathon. some more other runs maybe.

there's 2 legs of the Singapore Paintball Series. Maybe i'll be going for World Cup Asia this year with the Heartbreakers.

and of course. the MAIN highlight of this year. my ORD..!!!

i don't think i have a definite resolution for this year.

think i'll be much more high this year. think it's more me. i'll be more awesome this year.

yeah.

My resolution for this year would be to be more AWESOME.

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2010-12-27T22:06:00.000+08:00

It's about living in the moment..

It's like the moment when you are on the firing line, you look down at your fingers on the bowstring, ensuring the nock sits properly in between your fingers then you lift the bow up and begin the sequence of drawing the bow. And then the whole world suddenly shuts off and everything becomes silent. And as you look at the target down the range, your arms, your back, your body subconsciously carries out the movement of drawing the bow and then you come to anchor.

And as your eyes burn into the target metres away, you can hear your heart beat in slow, steady thumps. Then you hear a distinct "click" of metal on metal and an explosion of movements occur and you watch as the target gets impaled by your arrow.

It's like the moment when you've already ran 32km in the marathon and have only 10km to go. Your body screams at you to stop what you're doing but you just shut it all away. You don't want to hear anything. You just look down at the ground in front of you and will your feet to continue maintaining the running pace. You can feel the asphalt, the concrete, the gravel underneath your shoes. You run. And every footfall you make your calves tear apart and pain goes searing through your body. You don't want to hear the laments and complains of other runners regretting their entry into the marathon.

And as you near the finish. Your world suddenly becomes loud as spectators and race officials shout and cheer you on the last few metres. You look up and you see the time clock counting. And then the world becomes silent again. You look down at your thighs that have worked like pistons in a car engine throughout the whole race and will them to continue for just one last time. Your pace suddenly quickens, the cacophony of your body screaming and your laboured breathing dies down. And you feel yourself going faster and faster. And then you cross the shadow of the finishing banner and you look up. You've completed the race. You clench your fist in achievement and walk, contented with a smile across your face to the finishers tent.

It's like the moment where you've just cast your lure out and watch as it splashed into the water. And as the ripples of the lure's entry into the water dissipate, your world suddenly just quietens down and it's just you and your lure. You work the lure with the most steady of movements with your wrist that is holding the rod as the other hand slowly turns the handle of the reel. And with the quickest, deftest of movements, you flick your wrist in a rip and a jerk, to give the lure a injured baitfish action. To make it as lifelike as possible with the rips and jerks. And you continue to carry out the sequence of movements.

And then your world implodes as a fish explodes onto your lure. Inhaling it and getting a hook pierced through. Your rodhand instantaneously jerks upwards to get the strike and the hookset. And as you battle the fish on the other end of the line. Your world just gets shut away. The only thing you hear is the screaming of the drag on your reel as the fish fights to rid itself free. Your forearms strains as it battles to quickly reel in the line to get the fish in and slowly tire the fish out. And then, like how it all started. The fish tires away and you lift the fish out of the water and you just look at it in silent admiration and awe. You unhook the fish and release it back into the water. A wide grin across your face.

And.

It's like the moment when you put your barrel tip onto the starting frame. And as the referees call for the 10second warning before the start. You wind your body up like a coil ready to spring.

Your whole world just shuts off. And as you silently countdown. The sound of your heartbeat becomes thunderous. You can feel your breathing deflecting off the insides of the mask onto your chin. Your eyes just zero onto your initial spot. You can feel your blood coursing through your veins to your legs where they pool in the muscles that are going to propel you forward. And you watch from the corners of your eyes as the referees throw their hands down and shout game on.

Your world totally explodes and you spring yourself forward in a mighty dash, not looking anywhere else but your destination. As you dash through a mighty torrent of paintballs flying from opposite the field in hopeless vain to hit you. And as you near your destination, you feel yourself leaning forward and when u've lost control of your body falling forward, you give yourself a mighty push of your legs as you take off into a diving slide into your bunker. You get up and hold your marker up. And the game takes off.

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2010-12-13T18:06:00.003+08:00

It's never easy to let go.. never is..

It was harder than i thought it would be -- to just let go..
something just lingers and just tells me to try again, try harder. But I can't. I've run out of ideas. I've run out of opportunities. And several things that I did in the past has just made things much worse and harder for me..

and i've come to the point where I have finally made up my decision. where i'm confident and content with this decision.

I like this girl. I really like her alot, a whole lot. But i don't want to chase her anymore. I'm tired of chasing. I'm tired of being proactive to an unresponsive person. I've through with chasing. I'll just let the feelings die away. Just like every other thing in this world -- just die away..

2010-12-06T18:20:00.001+08:00

OK! OK!

Finally.. the main highlight of the end of the year..!!

Standard Chartered Marathon 2010..!!

Yes people. The annual inaugural event of the running year. The event I've been preparing for. Ok, i didn't prepare much for it. But nonetheless i did clocked in some mileage for it. One word to describe this day is -- EPIC.

And I'm quite elated. I can finally put away the ghost of Sundown 2009. Where i ended in a time of 8hrs++.. I completed Standard Chartered in 6 hours and 2 minutes and 45 seconds..!!! I could have completed it just under 6 hours if not for the epic moment at the end where i thought a chip timing mat was the finish line when the actual finish line was 150m away.. epic fail moment..

okay.. the night before, i went to Yam's belated party. I told most ppl that i wasn't gonna go coz i have standchart the next day. but everyone would be there and i already missed jovee's party. So might as well come down. And so i did. and kinda regret coz that left me with roughly only 1 and a half hours of sleep. Coz i came home rather late from it. Lucky i had all my stuff for the marathon all prepared on the dining table. So should i be late, i could just grab and go.

Was gonna run with kenneth loong for it. Met up with him. Got to the baggage deposit where it was mega epic fail coz there was so many ppl and it was so bloody slow. Met guolong here first. Guolong managed to deposit his bag first so he went off first. When we finally managed to deposit our bags, we were already half an hour behind the start time. So we had to run to the start. LOL. epic.

Okay so i ended the run in like 6hrs. so i can't possible write down 6hours worth of reading material here right? so i'll try my best to write down a condensed version of events.

Start was good. Got into a nice comfortable pace with kenneth that we both could sustain. But hey, kenneth's faster than me at 10km. but this is different, this is 42km. Our plan was to walk for a few seconds at the drink stations then continue running.. a walkbreak strategy.

the first leg was thru orchard road down to chinatown

at chinatown, it was still dark, so it was cooling.

after chinatown, we exited to nicoll highway where the sun started to rise.

Then it was to ECP where the bulk of the distance was. Caught up with Guolong here. Met sulaiman here too but he was already on the way back. He seems to have gone thru quite a change since the last time i met him.

and it was also where kenneth got a nasty cramp that took him outta the game and lost some momentum for us..

so the walkbreaks became more frequent as the pain became unbearable for kenneth. so i stopped with him. and during one of the stops, after the u-turn. someone caught up to me. it was my relative, Irsyad. lol. funny. so he joined us. his friends all had left him. so it was run and walk break all the way..

exited ecp to go into this weird place. the MCE service road.. this was the hardest stretch of the race.. it was the hottest..!! the sun was out full force and burning down on us and the worst thing is.. at 10km away.. it had no SHADE..!! not a slightest hint of a tree to provide a moment of gratifying shade..

super duper hot..!! i got a tan from it.. this was also where i met yvonne.

then the MCE service road exited to the newly constructed, Gardens at the Bay. It's the patch of land opposite the Marina Barrage. and it was also here that kenneth gave in and quit running the rest of the way.. he couldn't take the pain away. so he told me to carry on without him..

so i carried on with irsyad.. across marina barrage, thru marina bay road. exited to AYE where i met falina who was a volunteer first-aider.. and we ran up benjamin sheares bridge. but walked down it.. LOL..!! super cui lah..

my calves and forefoot was throbbing mad..!! now i know why ppl wore those compression calf socks.. think i'm gonna get a full length compression tights.. and have a look at shoes.. to combat this problem.. i had the same pain back during sundown..

we passed the F1 pit building, pass the Flyer where i met heechai.. at raffles avenue i met my wifey chinyan who just finished her half-marathon..

Irsyad and I concluded that for the last KM.. we were going to run it.. and so we did.. and along the way. across esplanade drive. there were some photographers and being me. I cheekily posed with a peace sign. LOL.!! and it was capture on camera..!! LOL..!!

So we turned in at fullerton and there in the distance, infront of connaught drive was a huge banner indicating which lanes should runner's from the respective distances take. And they had a chip timing mat there too so i thought that was the end.. so we chionged for it.. when we reached closer to it. we realised that that was NOT the finish line..!!! the finish line was 150m away..!!

that took the wind out of me.. so i ran as much as i could to the finish.. clocking in a time of 6hrs 2 minutes and 45seconds.. An Epic moment.

Ghosts chased. Self-respect gained.

i want more..!! next year..!! and i'll start training at the start of the coming year..!! i'll clock lots of mileage for it.. and i managed to get size S for the finisher tee so it fits me nicely now..!!

and i'll pamper myself with a new pair of shoes.. if i can't find a nice plush adidas pair, then i'll go back to asics..

Standard Chartered Marathon 2010 marks the end of running for this year. It's all rest time. Come next year. i'll start running again.. and do gymming too..

I WILL go for Standard Chartered Marathon 2011.. Come join me..!! Don't say i never jio..!!

But for now.. I'm in unbearable pain and waddling like a penguin..!!

2010-12-05T17:21:00.000+08:00

3MC FTW

2010-11-29T19:08:00.000+08:00

Finally did a long run in my 2XU tights and also the running tee for standchart on the sunday morning at 6am.. in case most of u don't know.. i.. erm.. made an error in selecting the correct size for my running tee.. why do they always have to keep on changing the sports apparel sponsor which has different sized cutting for its sizes..?!?! And so according to the measurements given on the website.. i took an -- XS..

Goddamn it's tight..!! i don't mind the running tee tight.. but the size given is also the same for the finisher tee..!! OMG..!! Hope the shirt won't be that bad.. and also wat i really hope for.. is that they allow a change.. goddamn..

Note to self: always choose S-M size for anything and everything.. it's okay to be abit small and abit big. but not TIGHT..!!

anyways.. did my final long run before standchart.. did it with the gear that i'll be putting on for the actual day.. and Runner's World's advice is so true -- try to have a long run with the gear that you'll be wearing for race day..
several things happened..

firstly, the 2XU tights were great.. i don't know how but they just felt great..
secondly, the tightfit standchart shirt isn't that bad.. i think if it's a bit bigger, i could have gotten some abrasions in the armpit region. Plus it's an Asics running singlet, the technology is supergreat. I don't feel the shirt clingy to me when it's soaked with my perspiration and it feels rather smoothly cool on the skin instead.. Think i'm gonna buy several in future.. and the size isn't so bad..
thirdly, the running belt i wore took some adjustments to find a suitable spot where it just stayed there without revolving around my waist.. u know those belts that have tiny bottle compartments and bottles on them..? yeah..i bought one.. and i found a nice spot to put it around my waist..
fourthly, my ITB acted up again.. think it's due to my increased mileage.. i plan to incorporated more walk breaks to allow my ITB to recover before i pound the pavement again.. so i plan to take a walk break at every drink station.. yeah. that sounds good.. and that's my running strategy for standchart..

but now i've got the sniffles..!! aacckkk..!!! *sniff*

2010-11-28T12:14:00.001+08:00

Went surf-fishing with ryan, ben and chow on saturday.. The idea was to go changi village.. get the stuff and then go to changi beach to fish.. bought like 10bucks worth of live prawns inititally.. then went to fish.. we had trouble hooking the prawn onto the hook.. coz it's either the prawn gets bitten off but the hook part's untouched, the hook kills the prawn, or the prawn gets thrown off the hook upon casting.. epic failure moments.. plus we're all beginner/novice anglers, i was the only one that knew how to tie the knots.. but i was super noob on saltwater fishing, especially the rigging-the-prawn part..

ouhwell.. we changed location once from changi point carpark 4 to carpark 6 after ben told us that his friend caught this huge stingray there.. so we went there.. freaking hell.. when we reached there it was high tide but the wind was super strong. And being a weekend, there were lots of other anglers there too.. so there was kinda of a lack of space coz we were afraid of entangling lines.

Not a single hookset.. WTF..!!! only our prawns got bitten off.. them small fishies nibbling on them.. but the thing is.. not a single angler on the whole stretch of changi beach got a hit or a strike.. not one at all..!!

the only consolation we got was ryan and chow having some small little palm-sized crabs humping on their prawns.. really just humping on their prawns.. not even on the hook.. then dropping off and digging deep into the sand..

it was low tide and it was so low that i could wade 10m out and cast my lure and it's just only up to knee level.. We've been spending 6 hours fishing at a spot where there was NOTHING..!! how irritating..!! but wat to do.. we were already there and dusk was coming in.. so we went home empty handed.. Zero Fighters us all.. And i had to lose my X-rap lure AGAIN..!! wtf..!!

2010-11-25T22:16:00.000+08:00

Went to Beach Rd with Ryan on sunday to accompany him go buy his fishing gear.. I feel bad.. I kinda got Ryan hooked on fishing.. lol.. coming saturday, we're going for some saltwater fishing at changi..

Been a real tiring week lately.. the workload's piling up.. after standchart.. i have back to back live firing ranges to conduct.. a real test of my mental endurance. Yeah. the tiring part of live firing is not the shooting part. It's to stay alert for the slightest breach of safety and to ensure that safety is never compromised.. and live firing always involves night shooting so it gets real tiring..

Bought some paintball stuff online.. I suddenly got the itch to ball.. really wanna let my aggression lose..

After being called a hyperactive monkey by peewee.. i realise that i AM a hyperactive monkey for i have so much activities i wanna do and so little time to do it, so i end up cramming everything up and having little, if not, no time for my social life..

So i've given my hyperactive activities a good thinking over..
I have: --
Archery,
Fishing,
Running,
Paintball

and i've come up with a likely schedule to supplement all of these.. I'm gonna look at weekends coz that's the only time i have for monkey-time..

Saturday's will be mainly for archery.. if i'm not tired.. i can squeeze in fishing before and after archery.. in the early morning and in the evening..

On sundays, if i have the expenses, i'll go down for paintball. Either for team training or to sharpen my individual skills.. and if i don't have the expenses. then i'll go for a run. And also, i can squeeze in fishing in the early morning or in the evening..

There.!!

that isn't so bad for a hyperactive monkey..

2010-11-20T23:19:00.000+08:00

Feeling damn melancholic now..
A gloomy state of mind..
The same feeling i got when i woke up from my bed on the last week of BSLC, on the 4th of February..

I feel quite empty inside. Like there's no sense of direction.. No light to guide my way.. It's like I've just stepped out of my path of life and now find myself wayward and lost..

It's such a real empty feeling.. a hollow feeling..

Had a real nice, long chat with chinyan yesterday after we collected our standard chartered marathon racepacks. But it made me feel much more dreadful to talk about it.. at how i've never done anything about it.. but that's over.. just some remnants still left behind.. And to even realise that i'm just nothing.. just a tool. someone to be used. makes the recovery even worse..

thought i could just sweat it out at archery today.. but it didn't happen. I didn't have the strength to shoot at all..

hope tmr's run would clear things up..

2010-11-15T09:36:00.000+08:00

One whole week spent in camp wtf.. plus today and tmr that'll be 9 days in total.. not to mention inclusive of a 24hr guard duty yesterday..

Would you believe it.. that I lost all motivation and inspiration to run last week..? T'was a shitty feeling. Didn't like it at all.. Wasn't in the mood to go for a run.. maybe coz of the realisation that i had to spend a significant amount of time in camp and spent 24hrs with a lazy person..

But in that 24hours, i spent it all on reading 2 Runner's World Magazines and somehow or rather, reading through the articles on the experiences of runners out there.. I managed to motivate myself again.. Now i'm itching for a run..

*sigh*

one week of non training.. that means i'll have to alter this week to accomodate for the lost of mileage and training intensity.. but everything looks fine so far..

just bought myself a pair of 2XU compression shorts for me to use on my long runs.. especially since 2 weeks ago, the 2hour run ended up with my blue shorts turning dark blue coz it was soaking wet.. Hmm.. my first pair of compressions shorts/tights.. Prolly use them for standard chartered as well.. I'm considering purchasing another pair of full-length tights for recovery after runs..

oh well.. till then..

Happy Running to all..

I feel merry and melancholic at the same time.. Happy in a sad way..

2010-11-05T20:19:00.000+08:00

Been sick this week.. rather bad.. fluctuating fever, flu with bad nasal congestion and flow and a nasty cough.. didn't do much marathon training. Fell sick on tuesday, so at least i did monday's workout..
Not gonna payback on the workout's i missed.. coz i only missed a wednesday workout.

Got a new Blackberry Curve 9300, just a simple phone with internet access and also something for me to upgrade my plan on after incessant, neverending nags from my mum to change my plan.. so might as well get a new phone too.. so now i can take pics of the fish i catch =D.

I set up a twitter account too.. just randomly set up.. lol..

2010-10-29T20:42:00.000+08:00

The charm of Fishing is that it is the pursuit of what is elusive but attainable -- a perpetual series of occasions for Hope

2010-10-24T17:41:00.006+08:00

Nike 10K Run Completed.
My first Nike 10k run.
Not bad of a run. Beat my personal best at 10km.

I've been participating in lots of loner activities. Things like running and fishing, activities where i do things by myself and let my mind wander. Ryan mentioned an important part of fishing that he kinda liked it coz it was a loner activity.

Letting my mind wander clears lots of things up. Doubts, worries, decisions, choices. Some of these are thought over while on the run or while just standing there casting and playing with my lure. And since i've been doing such activities in quite a high volume recently, i allowed my mind to wander for quite alot.

And the most nagging doubt and decision that i had to make was a matter of the heart. A lingering feeling i have held for quite some time - years in fact. And first and foremost i would like to apologise to my bros of 3MC for not mentioning this to you guys. You guys are the closest to me and we share our darkest secrets together. But everytime when i meet you guys, i don't see it as something for me to bring up coz everytime we meet, i'm lost in the moment that we're gonna spend together which is mostly filled with crazy laughter and jokes, and this matter just slips my mind. I'm happy whenever i see u guys so sad thoughts don't occupy my mind.

It goes like this. I kinda have feelings for this girl. And have held it for quite some time, even years. roughly around 4 years. For the first few years i was quite close to this girl. Spending quite some time with her on certain evenings and sometimes even accompanying her home. We were quite close to such an extent that people even thought that we were together - but we weren't. I wish we were but we were not. But for all the closeness, she never noticed how i much i care for her.. So it's kinda a one sided affair to be honest. But i believe the mistake i made is not letting my feelings known to her. But everytime i wanna do just that, something just pops up that stops me from doing so. Even when i had a girlfriend, she never strayed out of my mind. So much to the extent that even my ex-gf could sense that there was something i had for this girl. Like my ex-girlfriend was something to take me away from my failure of not being able to express my feelings for this girl. But i couldn't get her out of my mind, my feelings for this girl were strong.

So i still kept close to her. Eventually we parted and didn't see each other but i still kept my feelings for her alive in hope that she would one day realise something missing from her life. But she never did -- don't think she ever will.

It's kinda hard to explain feelings that has been going on for 4 years and this is the best i can do, a condensed version of events. We've drifted apart for the past year so as expected, the feelings i have for her come into question and i begin to question myself. "How long would i still want to wait?, Do you think she would still develop feelings for you after so long? "

The first song on my blog -What Hurts the Most by Rascal Flatts - is a good representation of this sort of relationship that i have with this girl. The lyrics are there so if u're interested just listen to the song and read the lyrics along with it..

The questions have always been coming up but i refuse to answer them, let them just fade away. But these kind of questions don't do that. irritating.

Even before this, when things were already drifting apart. And when i was about to let go, some events just happen and tell me not to. Just to hold on a little longer, maybe eventually she'll notice. This has happened countless times. But not anymore now. Not anymore

And it all culminates down to this moment. Where i have lots of time to allow my mind to wander and ask myself these questions and painfully answer them. And a decision has been made. Last week, i came to this painful conclusion during my 8km training run. I didn't want to accept it -- but i had to. And finally, during this Nike 10K run, as usual during a run. My mind wanders and consoles my heart. And i have decided to stop holding on, stop waiting and to let her go..

And finally after 4 years of painfully holding on, i've let myself free.

My heart is finally free..

2010-10-17T13:20:00.003+08:00

Lure Fishing For The Win...!!!

Saturday 16.10.10

Went lure fishing at 8am with dzaki at jurong lake. Northern Promenade fishing ground. Not much fish around. Didn't get a bite, other anglers didn't get a bite too. Dzaki with his first time fishing got my yozuri popper stuck up a tree.. lol.. couldn't get it down. ouh well. let him use the extra skitter pop that i had. He also agreed on the difference in action and feel that the Rapala Skitter Pop has over the Yozuri Arms Popper.

Rapala 1 : other brands 0

Went for archery to help geraldine, her last training before the Pol-ite games. Super hot today, got my tan back.

Went to Pasir Ris for mini alumni BBQ.. went to the location early to try saltwater luring. Stood like ankle deep in the water luring and luring, playing with my X-rap. All around me the other anglers were using their mega long surf rods with prawn bait and their fancy looking mini light sticks attached to their rod tips and leader rigs. I just tried my luck. With me and my new luring rod, working the X-rap.

Alternated going back to the BBQ and going down to the beach. Great company that came down. Shi min, De rong, Ashley, Timothy, Rayson, Shwa Juan were the not-so-often-met.. Ryan, Kailin, Christine and Wai jack, i see them often during archery..

Ryan wanted to learn how to fish so I lent him my rod and off we were to the beach to fish.. So i thought him how to cast and play with the lure, to vary the reeling speed to attract the fish.. He was like skeptical on our fishing success coz of the other anglers around with their surf fishing gear. We were like Out gunned in fishing tackle terms..

There was a time where the lure got snagged close to shore on some rubbish.. ryan thought it was a bite, since the rod bent like crazy.. lol.. but it was no bite.. it was rubbish..

As the tide went out, i thought i saw small baitfishies.. so i asked ryan to cast along that certain area. and true enough.. after several casts.. very very close to the shoreline.. Ryan got a bite and a quick hookset.. We both were caught unawares coz it was so close to shore.. True to wat the people in the forum said. Wild sea bass or Barramundi put up a good fight. it was spectacular as the fish jumped out the water and fought but as it was too close to shore Ryan got it out quite fast..

Rapala 2 : other brands 0

A BARRAMUNDI..!! KIM BAK LOR..!! On a lure..!! while the others around me with their live bait didn't get anything..!! lol..!!

I can categorize it as beginner's luck but wat a luck..!! It's a barramundi..!! One of the most highly sought after saltwater fish on our shores..!! But the greatest achievement was that it was caught on a lure..!! This is the first time i got a fish on one of my lures..!! Very very impressed..!!

Lure Fishing FTW..!!

gonna fish with my Rapala X-rap more.. prolly buy other colours of it..

till then..

Tight Lines..!!

2010-10-14T18:13:00.002+08:00

Marathon training starts on Monday and continues thru all the way up to December 5th.
Long runs on Sundays, anyone keen can just tag along.

E-waves Fishbyte at West Coast Road is the fishing tackle shop i shall patronize now. Ease of access with GREAT service. Will definitely go there for my fishing needs.

Ouhya. the previous post was rather too short and brief. I shall explain it further.
I went to Ewaves fishbyte last saturday and was instantly approached for service. I initially declined. but after numerous entries and exits to look at the baitcasting reels outside and inside the shop i was finally approached again when i was looking at Rapala lures. This guy, Melvin, asked me questions about my fishing which was great questions to address a customer's needs in a shop..

"sir can i help u? " is too common and boring a line used to offer service.

Melvin asked me "so u're into luring? where do u fish? " instantly i was hooked by his choice of words.. Words that addresses the customers needs..

Not like the usual
Sales assistant girl: "Sir can i help u?"
Hafiz: " Ouh yes, can u follow me into the changing room and take off my shirt for me? "

AHHAHAHAHAHA.. random shit..

Okay back to the story..

So i answered Melvin on my fishing locations and told him that i am into luring.. And so he told me about his own experience fishing at that location and the type of fish that were there and that he wasted a chance to get this toman coz he didn't bring his flyfishing equipment. So conversations are organic so i asked him about flyfishing and he asked me to drop by COHO if i was really interested. Then he got back into the topic of luring and thought me several techniques on working certain lures..

He also taught me how to effectively use certain lures at different types of the day and how to work them to entice fish to the lure. He is marvelous. A real fisherman and a real service person. He didn't work at e-waves yet was there to help the shopkeeper with the customers. Customers like me.

So he taught me on the different reels, the drags on them.. The rods and the different actions that they have..

So our conversations and exchange of opinions and technical knowledge went on until i made my choice of equipment. And so i made a new friend today -- Melvin..

I just can't wait to use my fishing stuff..

Most probably on saturday, before the bbq..
yesh i shall go there early, find a nice spot, cast my lines and enjoy myself..

And as all the people on fishing forums would go..

Tight lines...

=)

2010-10-10T12:07:00.001+08:00

Bought some new fishing gear.. NAISE..!!

watch out all u fishies out there..!!

Ngiahahahahhah...!!

2010-10-05T13:53:00.001+08:00

BLEARGH..!!

2 days MC..

So boring at home..

Been looking through fishing forums and websites. Really starting to question my fishing tackle. Ever since that uncle at changi kelong walk helped me with my tackle. He said that my choices were wrong. Ouh well. Thanks to Regal tang staff i suppose. They don't know their stuff just there to sell their items. A total regret. Next time I shouldn't ask them. I shall find online reviews. But since Regal Tang is the nearest fishing tackle shop. Prolly be visiting there quite often.

Yesterday's fishing trip also made me think on the choice of my equipment and also the fun and satisfaction i get out of the equipment.

Thinking of revamping my whole fishing tackle setup since i'm already thinking of getting a proper rod. Might as well change everything together with it. Thinking of getting a baitcasting set.

First, i'm gonna do some window shopping for good baitcaster reels.. then i shall look for a rod to complement it..

2010-10-04T11:45:00.003+08:00

I have every monday for the month of october off.. so peeps who want to ask me out on sunday and stay out late. please feel free to do so..

good for me.. more time to spend for myself on sundays without worrying of booking in..

Read thru a fly fishing forum and some fishing blogs and came across albert in one of the pics. LOL. quite funny. Fly fishing sounds very enticing.

Maybe on one of the mondays, i'll drop by COHO fishing tackle to purchase some fly fishing gear and also take up fly fishing lessons..

I'm beginning to really love fishing..

2010-09-29T22:44:00.002+08:00

So looks like lots of people are coming back, returning to archery.

Shaun Ho is back. So are Kai Lin and Christine. Nice to see them back. =)

Their presence really brings back the memories of the good ol' days.. Back when we were young and naive. XD.

Had a good talk with certain friends on life. Nice Heart-To-Heart-Talk (HTHT). Made me realise how my vision is narrow and that I should take more glimpses of life around me, of the many other opportunities rather than taking a small chance and working on it. To be brave and courageous and sometimes playful.

2010-09-16T23:25:00.002+08:00

WOOO..!!

Exercise galore..
Monday, wednesday, friday -- morning runs
Tuesdays, Thursdays -- Gym..

think i'm gonna inculcate more gyming in a more militarized way..
I have the Navy Seals Fitness e-book..
and the Ultimate US Marines Workout..
damn.. gonna be tough.. already did two days of the marines workout and it's quite a challenge and that's only with light weights and one circuit..

i'm developing a much more militarized physique.. something different.. lean yet fit..
i miss chiongsua-ing.. maybe that's why i'm doing all these crazy exercises..

i'm gonna add in more runs to the weekends as well.. maybe friday night as well..
damn.. lol.. think i'm going to be a fitness freak..

2010-09-12T16:32:00.003+08:00

Fasting month over..!!

I've lost a significant amount of weight -- 1kg. Not good at all.

But now fasting's over so i can carry on with a much healthier, active lifestyle.

More gyming, more active running.

Had Army Half-marathon just now.. i'm a 10km participant cause I'm still a still a first year soldier.. This will prep me up for the upcoming Nike 10km. A gauge for me to know how much i need to train. And of course to train up to the ultimate event at the end of the year -- the marathon.

Not bad of a run.. Lots of friends met.. Great. Spent most of the time stopping and saying hi and catch up a lil bit with friends and buddies from other units than actual running. LOL.

So.. my timing wasn't that good. lol. 1hr 10minutes. HAH..!!

till then..

2010-09-05T00:50:00.005+08:00

When you've seen someone pass out and hit himself on the head, opening up a real deep gash on the forehead which exposes the skull.. and he lays there in your lap as you try to calm him down..

How would you feel..?

I shall admit that it's rather traumatising. The same psychological impact that I got when I saved Dave back in thailand.. It's like you want to cry, but deep down something just tells you not to cause you are strong..

The bloody image still lingers in my mind.

How?

2010-08-29T20:42:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to blog about..
Just alot of decisions to be made and choices to be.. erm.. chosen..?
Choices that involve money and expenditure.. =(

Ouhya.. I've finally decided to create another blog.
A sort of progression blog to note down the progress i've made in the multitude of activities that i do.
I think it's a good move.
Blog's on the side should you want to have a look --->

And one more last thing to end this off..

The ONLY, ever reason for me to watch the Twilight series Movies is to watch Alice Cullen..
OMG, i'm in love with her.. she's like.. The One.. she embodies wat i want in a girl..
Ashley Greene FTW.

2010-08-28T18:09:00.001+08:00

Petite

Pixie-like

A graceful gait

Bubbly

Sporty

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and i'm featured in today's The New Paper, Saturday August 28 2010 pg 16.

Nice.

Empire Events, uber awesome..

2010-08-19T17:59:00.005+08:00

this is gonna be a random post.. nothing to do with my daily activities.. just simply random..

Just something different.. from now on, things are going to change for me..

I just don't know how to lay out this bag of snakes. It's like many random variables culminate into one final product. And that product is a soon-to-be-changed me.

Obnoxious quips by people that had a really, great and deep impression on myself. On how the way I dress, how the way I talk, how the way I interact with others -- on how I'm different from others. I have to admit that I'm deeply affected by it. It's like that feeling of some sort of sharp pain in the chest that makes your skin have this weird tingling feel when someone just randomly quips something about you. I bet most of you have encountered this feeling before. It's not nice. And the not so nice part of it is when you begin to question yourself.

Confidence that have been brimming and shining for most of the time suddenly just gets shadowed and stalled, and you just shrink and slouch into insecurity. Every single detail about ourselves suddenly becomes magnified and we begin to judge and question how our actions and our looks are seen from the eyes of others. Little do we know that every time we doubt ourselves it kills our confidence one layer at a time. Or rather we know it, just that we refuse to accept that fact.

But as we question ourselves. We pain ourselves to look right, to look normal, to be normal in the eyes of others. It's always about looking right in the eyes of others. And when we do it, it feels real fake , it feels plastic. Even though we look right in the eyes of others, we don't feel right.

I just can't stand having my confidence being eaten away after working so hard to nurture it. I don't like it at all. So i begin to question my actions.

Why do I have to accomodate for others? Why can't they accomodate to me? It may sound rather selfish but I pretty much prefer the latter. I bet you, the one reading this, will have something inside you that just agrees with me.

But look at it this way, the first question is to demand you to change yourself to suit others. Let's change the perspective, do others change to suit you. Most certainly they won't. And why should they? That's why I prefer the second one.

I can't change myself. I am me. I am what I am. People will have to adapt to me being with them. Whatever I do is what defines me. This is the change that's about to happen. No more accomodating for others. I just want to be me.

As I see it. Standing tall and firm to being who I am brings out my confidence. Nothing beats confidence, really. You feel good, you feel great. You walk around with your back straight and your head upright. People enjoy being with you coz the confidence just oozes energy and people like this energy.

This is me making a stand. This is me being ME. This is me coming out of my shell. This is me. And this is the change.

2010-08-15T17:18:00.003+08:00

HOKAY..!!!

was informed on wednesday that the whole SME team was activated to help in the YOG.. Help to usher. it was on a saturday. so weekend burnt.

on thursday, we were informed that we would get the friday off for saturday's event.

come saturday, informed that we weren't suppose to do ushering but to actually just fill up the stands with our attendance.

So in other words --- FREE TICKET TO YOG OPENING CEREMONY...!!!

some of my team members didn't want to watch, saying that it's a waste of time etc etc.. Again.. complaints and whines.. but they don't know how much a ticket actually costs.. $80 the cheapest. i don't know how much mine was.. and they also don't appreciate the fact that this event marks the start of one of the world's first sporting events and it's happening here, in Singapore.. not many will have the chance to catch it.. so why not just watch it..

Okay so some people are not appreciative of things.. i don't care. that's their opinion to keep. i have mine..

So i took some of my friends tickets, since they're not gonna watch it.. then i called over some friends - Zhibin and Kok Wei over to watch it with me..

Really really nice event.. really liked it alot..

the atmosphere's great.. there's a nice mix of locals and foreigners in the stands so there was a big blend of culture and how the foreigners are such a sporting people and their sportsmanship somehow rubbed on to the locals so much that literally everyone was standing throughout the whole thing.. including me..

damn nice experience.. beyond words i should say.. there's a few pics on facebook.. have to look thru kokwei's album.. and also a couple of vids too..

YOG Singapore 2010 will be a good event..

All the best to all participants.. keep the flames of sportsmanship alive..!!

and also..

goodluck to my brother who's representing singapore in hockey..

2010-08-09T12:32:00.009+08:00

With regard to a post i made on my birthday, I have decided to re-start paintball.

So when i got my huge lump-sum-mega-back-pay allowance, i bought myself some paintball stuff to get my game going again. Went out with Sam shopping on saturday. Didn't go for archery since most of the club went for YOG rehearsal.

Oh ya, another factor to me skipping archery is that I'm recovering from a shoulder injury. It doesn't hurt when i shoot but whenever i raise my arm or any other action that involves moving my shoulder, it hurts. It doesn't hurt that much, it's just freaking irritating that's all. So i think a week of rest should help in the recovery -- i hope. =X

Ok that aside. When i came home that saturday. I had a lil chat on msn with yazid and guess wat.. the following day yazid was gonna play with his team..!!! that's damn nice..!! So i asked if i could join him.. and so i tagged along..

Back at RD. Wow. So much has changed. So i sat in that little hut outside with some guys. Chee Yong still remembered me just forgotten my name. Sham was similar. There was a heartbreaker there too by the name of Derek. Damian remembered me. Nice to see him too. And KiKo.. lol.. he was like "AII..!! What are you doing here..??!! " lol.. i'll be a man and say it.. I miss them lots.. lol..

Then yazid came together with kenny. Kenny - nice guy, captain of the Heartbreakers i think. Surprisingly, there were many teams present. Sham's Contract Killers were there, A newly formed team the Ragdolls, some guys from Outlawz and the Seekers.

Since there was an overwhelming attendance of teams.. it was decided to forgo the drills and proceed with skirmishes. Since the heartbreakers had a large attendance.. a few of us had to top-up the Outlawz.. so since i was new, the heartbreakers asked me to play with the outlaws along with yazid..

And guess wat.. since the outlaws already had a snake player.. the position i was always playing everytime i go into the field.. they asked me to play on the dorito side.. which is a position i've never played before.. nonetheless it was something new to try..

And wow.. the feeling of playing paintball again.. so fun.. the sound of the impact of 2 guys pinning me down in my dorito was exhilarating.. lol.. the shooting was fun.. the new HPA tanks realy need some getting used to.. and i did a mistake that i always do.. calling myself out when i got shot but it bounced.. damn mistake..

so for the whole day i played on the dorito side and i have come to enjoy being on that side.. it's not as pressurising as the snake side where everybody is out to get you.. we played a number of games..

i think i did really well on the dorito side.. Kenny liked how fast i was.. so did everybody from heartbreakers.. they commended on my speed.. nice =)

it was a great day of paintball.. I would like to again thank yazid, chee yong and the rest of the heartbreakers for letting me play with you guys.. maybe i could join you guys.. just maybe.. when other committments allow.. but yeah.. it'll be great..

looking forward to the next paintball game..

on another much IMPORTANT note..!!

ONE MORE YEAR TO SEE PINKY..!!! AHAHHAHA..!!!

heck. fasting month starts on wednesday.. gonna be a real test of will being in the army and fasting..

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY TO ALL..!!

2010-08-03T11:35:00.000+08:00

Humans are creatures of habit. Choosing to do things on a routine basis and activities which comfort them the most. And here in my unit, in my camp, for the past 2 months that I have been here, Comfort has been a routine.

The occasional strenous, labour-intensive activities are done in support of major events such as Tekong Challenge and Firepower Demonstration. And still being in this bubble of comfort. There are a few, MANY, complaints by certain individuals on how "We're not suppose to do this.." or "3SGs are not suppose to be doing this".. Just to name a few of the multitude of whineying. 3SGs are NOT suppose to be whining.

I think the most annoying complaint would be when we were activated to report in the morning without breakfast to setup a station and all I hear is complaints and whines on how they are hungry. But on normal days, when there's nothing to do, these particular individuals DON'T wake up for breakfast. Puzzling isn't it?

We 3rd Sergeants (3SG) did not go through 5 months of intensive training just to be in a bubble of comfort. They trained us to do things beyond our own capabilities. We did not go through the sticky mud, the cold rain and the scorching sun to relax and lie in our beds. We did not go through intense body aches, drenched in sweat and fighting fatigue just to be comfortable. They trained us to be physically tough and mentally alert. They trained us to be specialists. WE DID NOT TRAIN FOR COMFORT.

Sometimes we humans are ungrateful beings as well. Not thankful of the privelege of comfort when finally called upon for duty. I always believe life is about balance. There will be good times and bad. There will be times of great challenge and also of great comfort. God is fair and I appreciate that the most.

We've had our time of comfort. Now's the time to step up to the challenge. It's going to be a hell of a month ahead, not to mention that it'll be the fasting month as well. Back to back high key events and hopping from one company to the next, day in, day out.

We are 3rd Sergeants. And this is what we're supposed to do.

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2010-07-27T22:08:00.002+08:00

What started out to be a screwed up day with a multitude of tasks that were highly unnecessary and an interview for something that's like "you're confirmed in even if you don't want to be" course turned out to be a rather subtle blast for me.

On this day of days, a day that happens once every year, on my birthday.
An avalanche, a literal avalanche of birthday wishes from my friends out there filling up my facebook page and flooding my handphone inbox. It doesn't seem like much but the impact of messages really really made my day.. I was literally swelling with happiness at the sight of seeing so many emails and notifications.. I must be a real well-liked person to receive so many..

I would like to wish a BIG thank you to all my friends out there who made the effort to wish me.. and for that i would honour that effort by individually replying to all your wishes..

that aside..

i have finally made the decision to re-start paintball.. it's like life's telling me to go back to it. Invites from friends to go for a paintball session, affordable paintball passes and the like. That I need it to channel away all my aggression, all my frustrations and paintball is the way to go.. I'll be back real soon.. I miss the friends I made back in Red Dynasty. And the many things i learnt there and also to mention the really crazy and fun times I had.

Lucky Yazid's playing.. at least i got a real close friend playing it too. then can go back and play together..

Archery's not out.. i will always shoot.. Archery on saturdays as per normal and the occasional paintball skirmish on sundays.. yeah, that'll be great..

2010-07-26T15:05:00.002+08:00

Closer to Restricted age..

I have many thoughts to rant about. To get it all out of my mind and penned down here so i can organize my thoughts. But I just don't know how and where to start.

Everything's simply just - random.

Random thoughts popping up linking to practical thoughts, practical things that i have left hanging, cast aside to be pondered on for a later moment. These random thoughts reminding me that these things have yet to be solved and they're still waiting for my actions.

But with a multitude of new things emerging, how do i solve those earlier perplexing situations..?

I need time. But my time is running out - fast. I need time to settle down, put down this bag of coiling predicaments and lay them all straight.

It's just amusing in a bewildering way. Why does life keep on throwing us with a magnitutde of events and things that it knows that our own mortal minds cannot comprehend? Is it a test of our resolve and patience? A test of our mental strength?

I want to do so many things in so little time. Not to mention the monetary costs involved. I want to meet so many people, so many of my friends that i haven't seen in such a long time. But i have so little time to accomodate for all of them.

For all the things I have been doing and have done, nothing seems to be satisfying.

I've just come to realise that these type of conflicting thoughts always turn up during this time of the year. The time where i reflect back - What have I done for the past years that's really meaningful?

What have I done with my life?

2010-07-20T23:49:00.002+08:00

Joy and relief for me..!!!

The stay-out quarantine period is finally over.!! I get to stay-in on the island. No more 2 hour long journeys, no more waking up at 430am, no more reaching home mentally tired..

No More..!! No More..!!!

Ok.

Life as an SME instructor is ramping up slowly.. JC visit last week, had to parade myself as a "model".. Camo on, with weapon, full battle order.. in front of a whole audience.. it was kinda cool.. especially the part where i get surrounded by girls.. XD.
there were a number of cute and hot girls present.. great eyecandy for me.. sad that it's only eyecandy.. how bout they like write their hp number on a piece of paper and slip it into my hand kinda thing..?? how bout that..?? that would be nice.. sadly it's just a fantasy.. Hah..!! This week would be poly students.. even better.. they come in, you know, ehem, "nice" clothes.. HAH..!!

Only recently I've acquired somewhat of a new hobby/pastime.. something to, well - pass time.. it started with my current buddy halifi suggesting that we go fishing during our nights off since we got nothing much to do and that we live on the other side of mainland singapore.. and yeah.. the new hobby is fishing.. it doesn't look like much but it really is fun.. especially the part where you "fight" with the fish as u reel it in.. applying the right amount of tension on the line, reeling in slow or fast to "play" with the fish.. and finally the time where you pull the fish out of the water and get the satisfaction of knowing what you were "battling" with and the reward of a catch..

I've done some fishing before earlier in my life but I've never learnt how to actually fish.. and it was through halifi that i learnt some new things about fishing especially what i learnt just now was how to cast the line.. LOL!!

Ya.. i don't know how to cast a line.. but i've learnt it now.. bought a cheap set of rod and reel and i'm all set..

In case most of you are wondering how i actually posted up this entry since i'm in camp is because tekong now has wireless intranet and we specialists are given a small laptop each. that's how i'm posting this up..

on the otherside of things.. I know that I've been a good friend to most.. always providing a listening ear.. always lending a helping hand.. always giving advice.. but i have almost always been approached when i'm physically around.. Like.. 'Oh hafiz is here, i'll ask him for help' kinda thing..

But I never knew that I really matter most to some.. that some friends would actually call for help and advice in the most dire of times.. and i'm actually quite surprised yet strangely honoured to be called..

To that particular friend.. I'm real honoured to be called by you even though it was in the dead of night.. your problem is not unfamiliar to me and it will be hard going through it and letting it pass.. I've been through it before, it wasn't easy, it never is.. but time is the best healer of a broken heart..

To that particular friend.. thank you for calling me.. You will be alright.. Stay strong.. I will always be there for you.. as i've always been for all my friends..

2010-07-04T21:50:00.002+08:00

Life's getting pretty mundane when every day's short and tiring..

I'm on medical quarantine from Tekong, so i cannot stay in on the island for an extended period of 8 weeks.. from 6 weeks it became 8..

sucks

it sucks coz it's an hour train ride from pioneer to pasir ris and then another approx 20-30min bus ride to SAF ferry terminal.. the transport fare's the worse.. and there's the 15minute ferry ride to the island itself.. that's 2 hours to get to tekong..
And to have 2 rides of such a magnitude back and forth every day for 5 days in a week.. it takes a heavy toll on my physical being.. it is very tiring.. especially on the way back after a day's work on the island.. and being in uniform i have to give up my seat on the train.. it is very tiring.. and the travel time cuts short the time i have to do other things..

I'm in bed by 9pm as i have to wake up at 430am and leave the house by 515am.. the past week has been the same.. i was fortunate enough to have a week of leave since the SME team has got nothing much to do..

i have one more week left of staying out.. can't wait to stay in.. i can go about making plans to maintain or even improve my fitness.. and i can sleep well.. rest well.. no more energy draining rides..

okay.. melancholy aside..

the one week leave was spent mainly in the gym.. long time since i gymed.. a wednesday of archery..

a thursday evening out with my lovelies.. lol.. just had a simple catch-up dinner with my sweetie jie ying, christine, dear chinyan and of course my sayang shwajuan.. had dinner at secret recipe plaza singapura.. though it was just a short moment.. i believe the time spent in each other's company was good enough to satiate the feeling of missing each other and also to relive the feeling of "the good old days"..
It was a nice time spent with each other.. looking forward to another occasion -- with more people the next time..

NUS indoor on the weekend.. been a long time since i went to a competition to spectate.. it's great yet weird feeling.. a sad, familiar feeling.. a constant reminder why i went through this sabbatical and i should up the ante on it..

anyways.. i was there to actually watch geraldine.. unbeknownst to most.. i have been providing personal coaching to geraldine.. so i was there to support her.. she did pretty well in the individual rankings.. she placed 7th i think.. but they got top ranked team.. so for the team event for both institutional and NUS challenge.. geraldine got 2 Gold Medals.. hope that's the start for more medals.. proud of her i should say..

but kinda sad too........

i think that's all for now..
next week..
ATP..
marksmanship badge here i come..

2010-06-20T21:31:00.001+08:00

Updates..!!

Finally moved out of Pasir Laba Camp, after 2 weeks of commander's prep course.. A course where obtaining the rank of 3SG loses it's value and meaning -- being treated like goddamn recruits. Refusing to acknowldege matters brought up in AAR, then wat's the point of having an AAR anyway..?!

That aside.. Being a 3SG on tekong is quite the culture shock. Recruits actually greet me.. Whooo... takes some getting used to.. tekong has changed rapidly the last time i set foot on the island.. LEARNet.. IWF.. SME.. lots of changes.. think the biggest change would be the freedom in movement that i now have, i can go to the canteen now.. LOL..

On my posting.. I was initially posted to School 1 but then moved to SME at the very last minute.. Subject Matter Experts (SME) are basically intructors that are deployed to the various companies to teach.. once they're done teaching.. then we just move off.. Somewhat of a move to standardize the method of teaching the basic soldiering skills.. which is good for me.. i initially wanted to be an instructor back in SCS.. but i got posted to tekong.. but all in all.. i become an instructor as well.. but on tekong.. 42km away from home, 1 and half hours of bus and train ride, 20minutes ferry..

Personal life.. nothing much has been going on.. archery and the occasional movie.. Now i've been forced to take leave and i have a whole week ahead for me filled with -- nothing.. perhaps maybe some gyming and archery.. the juniors need help before NUS indoor..

and i did something so stupid in my life.. an action i did that i am already regretting.. ouh melancholy, melancholy wash over me for what i have done.. i will never have that chance again.. ouh hafiz hafiz.. why did u move away from one of the hottest beings on earth when she clearly approached you...?!?!?!? HAFFIIIIIIZZZZ....??!?!?!? WHY...!???!?!

2010-05-30T19:09:00.000+08:00

Okay so the previous entry was written last week but only posted this week.
Bout time i did an update on the events of the past week.

Okay so i have passed out from 5 months of training in the Specialist Cadet Infantry Course as a 3rd Sergeant.
My posting -- the island of Tekong.

Kinda disappointed to be honest, given the variety of the other units that were open. Especially, that i didn't get into faculty team.

The only thing that washes the disappointment away is the fact that i'm going there with a whole lot of my friends.. i mean really a whole lot of my friends.. 80% of my platoon are going there together with me.. that's like friends that i've known since apache company going back with me to where it all started. People like helmi, shafiz, ridwan, scott to name a few from apache and of course, my BMT bunkmates Irwan and Dave are all going back.

The passing out parade was grand and i liked it given the fact that it was done with great passion and commitment -- and of course it was conducted at night..

Moving on, the public holiday of friday was spent resting from the previous nights parade. Yesterday, it was spent with archery ( as usual XD ) and alot more time with the juniors and we did some crazy stuff..

Today was kinda lethargic, think i'm going for a run later..

2010-05-28T16:00:00.001+08:00

I'm BACKK..!!!

3 weeks of tough training..
Life changing experience..
Hot, hot HOT..!!

Bloody hell.. Came back to find my home broadband connection cut.. So it took quite sometime for me to update this..

And as per my last entry.. i've bought myself a new pair of running shoes.. My last ASICS Gel-Kayano 14s wasn't suited for me.. It's rather heavy.. Come to think of it, most Asics shoes are rather heavy.. the Kayanos were nice, plush underfoot and provided a firm fit, but it's too heavy for me. So i gave it to my dad..

Went on my own shopping spree, Sadly though, didn't get to purchase much. Just one top and one pair of shorts. But more to come, more to come. The most particular item of my expenditure is of course the new pair of shoes i bought - the Adizero Tempo 4.

On the other hand, i'm currently in the process of a wardrobe revamp. I'm getting more and more Adidas stuff into my wardrobe.

If you know me well, you would know how much affinity i have towards Adidas products.

I'm changing my wardrobe to more sporty and outdoor brands - Adidas, Teva, Oakley and the like..

Okay that aside.. and as i mentioned before - time to run..
Running in camp was the thing i needed to get me kick-started.. The 4km run was nice, i felt good and never wanted to stop. You know that "okay i've run enough now, stop" kinda feeling.. yeah.. i never had that feeling.. it was more of like "just keep on running, don't slow your pace, just keep going"..

And that felt great.. i ran last saturday evening for about 4km.. it was a fast 4km around the estate.. and it was rather surprising given that i ran straight after a day of archery.. that's good. Means i have a larger supply of energy..
Gonna increase mileage..
I ran it with my new shoes.. they feel great. Light and a smooth ride underfoot. Making each footfall just flow into the other. making my turnover stride fast and constant..
yes i'm loving this..

freaking hell.. there's a pasar malam on my running route.. have to detour

Anyone going for Standard chartered..??

2010-04-17T19:49:00.000+08:00

Combat Skills badge on my chest..

My fitness is deteriorating. This is not good. Being lazy is not something i like. On the contrary, being lazy is nice to the extent that i can rest but resting too much is not doing well over my well-being. I get cranky and angsty when my rest is interrupted.. I get lethargic.. my movements are slow and sloppy..

Not good..

Not good..

this has to change..

Indulging in too much rest is very bad.. On the brink of falling into one of the 7 deadly sins -- sloth.. not good..

I have to keep active.. to keep my fitness up.. to stop being lazy.. to stop being slow.. to stop being tired.. all these has to stop..

I must start running again.. and perhaps even adding abit of working out with weights just to tone out.. yes yes.. this is a good plan..

when i get back.. i shall buy myself new running gear..

New Shoes.
New shorts.
New running tee.

yes.. i shall run either on a saturday evening or sunday morning.. yes.. that's a good plan..

I shall invigorate myself once more..

Help myself, help others..

2010-03-28T14:23:00.000+08:00

Okay.. so i haven't been updating in 3 weeks..
And those 3 weeks passed by very fast..

3 weeks ago..
Section quick attack live firing..
CSB navigation test back in lower mandai.. which thankfully i passed.. the ghosts of exercise gypsy have been put to rest.. checkpoint BULL.. the checkpoint i found myself at when my detail got lost during Gypsy was the checkpoint i was to find for CSB Nav-ex.. so the 'locale' knowledge was a bit of a help.. i carried the signal set all the way during the day.. surprisingly i did not feel that tired or have my back and shoulders aching while carrying it..
then GPMG live firing.. kinda fun.. the machine gun is one hell of a monster.. sad to know that these weapons are made to kill.. the rounds.. 7.62mm rounds.. were made to decimate flesh and rip bones apart.. i'm pretty damn sure that if one of these things were to be let loose on me.. there better be a concrete block between me..
sunday had COS-CDT duty together with sabaruddin..

2 week ago..
Platoon field camp at upper mandai-marsiling area.. quite an interesting field camp.. though quite short alot has been learned.. i guess it's thanks to having 2 Guardsmen in my platoon and one of them is a Ranger.. the experience that they share are a great boon and has always been ever since i stepped into charlie company.. there was one occasion on the last day where we had a platoon battle course.. an interesting battle course.. my section was to provide the security element for my platoon.. and again.. i find myself having strength i didn't know i had.. when all around me, my buddies are panting and sweating and there i am running around.. taking up their positions as they try to catch up to the demands of providing security to the platoon.. it was quite exhausting.. and we had to do a CasEvac.. and at the point in time.. i was thankful that back at Golf Coy we did a CasEvac in FBO.. so now.. it wasn't that hard..

the past week..

another outfield.. but this time it's Urban Operations.. this time.. it's held at the Neo Tiew village.. interesting place.. very different from MUTF.. i mean it's like.. this place.. people once lived here.. and it's more practical coz it's actual flats that's the basis of design of most HDB blocks in singapore.. it's a good place to train.. had a really great time here.. it was fun..
oh ya.. there were 2 live firings during this week.. one at the start and the other at the end of UO.. so the past week really passed by fast..

coming week..
the final hurdle for that badge on my chest.. the final 32km route march coupled with a display of combat skills such as rifle assembling, marksmanship and crossing water obstacle..

and also.. platoon live firing..

honestly.. i've never been thru so much live firing before.. week after week there's live firing..

oh well..

i realise that if i don't update my blog regularly.. the entries become monotonous and brief.. kinda something i don't fancy.. i shall try to update regularly..

that aside..

personal life.. been spending most of civilian life with archery or going out with my family.. okay so it's pretty much saturdays are mine with archery or whatever ME-time and sundays are spent lazing at home or out with family..

before i end this off.. me and jordan came across this interesting phenomena some weeks back.. so i tried it again this week.. i sang the ever famous entre to Lady Gaga's Bad Romance song.. that Hooooaaahhhh-hoooo.. after singing that part i stopped.. and guess what.. the phenomenon happened..
Cindy continued the song from where i left off..!!! LOL..!!
Everytime, say, we're walking back from retrieving then me and my crazy self would just hum or sing the song.. then cindy would follow suit either singing together with me or singing after me.. and she the amazing thing is.. she can't control it..!! LOL..!! so whenever i sing a familiar song.. she'll sing after me..

Even when i sang SNSD's latest hit Oh!.. she can sing after me.. LOL..!! damn funny..!!

i think that's all.. it's been quite a long entry..
think i shall stop writing about my army training.. it's getting kinda.. common..

2010-03-07T00:07:00.000+08:00

2 weeks into 54th Advanced Section Leader Course (ASLC)
otherwise officially known as 03/09 Professional Term..

Already on the first day we had to have a 5km run.. what a welcome note.. Platoon 1 Section 4.. a.k.a the Melayu section coz 8 out of 13 of the section are malay.. i have irwan back with me in the same bunk and surprise surprise ahmad jumadi from GESS with me too..

1st week..
SOC circuit training.. lectures.. and the highlight of the week was demolition live firing.. freaking loud man.. beats boom boom pow hands down.. lol.. a great experience though..

2nd week..
River crossing.. got sick coz the water entered my ear and i got a throat infection which lead to a slight fever and a blocked/runny nose.. but i still soldiered on.. GPMG technical handling. Freaking monster of weapon.. made to rip apart human flesh. Made to kill. then it's the ever infamous SOC test.. a test that will determine my saturdays and one veto factor off my mind for the next 10 weeks.. i passed though.. but at a very very slow timing.. but the most demoralising part of it all was that it was the first time in my life i slipped off the low rope.. first time in my life..!! i couldn't grip the rope at all with my boots.. the morning dew making the rope wet and slippery.. ended the week with an 8km run..

it's gonna be tiring the next few weeks.. super jammed packed and rushed with field camp after field camp then the ever well-disliked exercise crescendo to thailand..

i'll keep updating as much as i possibly can..

coming week..
section quick attack live firing.. GPMG live firing which will see me booking out early on a saturday morning and COS duty on sunday going to a week of field camp.. gotta get my stuff prepared as much as possible with whatever available time..

been having nice dreams lately.. lol.. keep them coming.. at least these dreams will keep me from losing my mind..

2010-02-14T08:01:00.000+08:00

End of BSLC..

as per all before me..
the '28km' route march..
started with a National Education Lesson at Kranji War Memorial followed by a wreath-laying ceremony then the actual march.
Golf company was the second company to go..
Freaking long walk.. the first checkpoint at kranji dam took a hell of a long time to reach.. but the sea breeze at the dam was refreshing and nice.. the journey to the second checkpoint was a different kind of walking hell.. it was longer.. we were told that it's about 6km.. but in actual fact.. it's about 8km.. the journey there was filled with walking by oriental fish farms that were guarded by super big dogs that barked and growled at us when we walked by.. From normal mongrels, wolf-like german shepherds,fierce rottweilers, labradors and tall great danes.. very interesting indeed.. it's like a walk through the zoo but the zoo is just filled with all kinds of dogs..

Honestly, i don't mind the heavy load on my back with my shoulders screaming in pain, i can just trudge on step by step. it's like any other route march that i have done.. the mantra would be "just walk.. just walk.." but this is the first time i've ever marched thru the night.. we started at 9pm and finish at 5am.. it's just the sleep that i can't fight off.. often i walked like a zombie.. slowly drifting out of line and forcing myself to get back in line or i get the occasional thrust in the back of the knee when i zombie inwards by my buddy's rifle.. there were some places were it was so dark.. the eerie glow of the blue light stick on the back of my officers were the only things guiding the way.. and the eerie blue of it made everything else blurry and sleepy..

when it comes down to route marches.. i can just walk it through.. but when it involves fighting sleep.. then it's a challenge..

finished the graduation route march labelled at 28km but the actual distance was 32km.. confirmed by our CWO who walked behind us..

the next 2 days was filled with admin stuff and dekitting of the store items.. then the final day of the week.. passing out parade and posting order..

Not surprising.. i got to ASLC.. at charlie company..
kinda sad to leave golf.. all the hardship and strict regimentation at golf will be missed.. when i reported to charlie on the same day.. i was in for a culture shock.. so it's true wat the seniors and the faculty team say about each company having it's own culture.. it will take some time to get used to charlie's ways.. what i can only think of is to bring golf's culture to charlie..

well.. being in ASLC.. i still have yet to know my vocation.. being in ASLC.. there's only 2 vocations.. Infantry and Guards..
which one will i get..? i dunno.. but nonetheless either one will be tough in it's own way.. all i can say is "whatever comes.. just do.."

Infantry would be the norm since we've been training as infantrymen since the start.. if i go to guards.. then it'll be a real eye-opener.. till then.. no stress..

a long long break in NS-terms till the next book in date..

to all my chinese friends.. Happy Lunar New Year..
to all my romantic, in-love, not-in-love, melancholic( XD ) friends, both single and attached.. Happy Valentine's Day..

2010-02-06T22:51:00.000+08:00

Monday to Thursday morning..

Exercise Wanderer on Monday.. literally wandered all around tekong from north west to north east to south east to south west.. quite fun exercise.. get to know the people in my detail much better..

Exercise Grandslam from tuesday to thursday.. shellscrape digging and section battle course.. OCS cadets were around too so we clashed numerous times.. but it was great to meet my BMT mates that are in OCS now.. main highlight.. a damn big wild boar ransacked tan sean's field pack for food and his shellscrape is just like 3m away from mine and i was changing my underwear when jonovan discovered the boar and i ran out barefooted to hanhui's shellscrape.. LOL..

Thursday to Friday..

I could say that it's one of the most saddest time of my life.. I've never felt so much anger, betrayal and sadness.. It's so sad..

It's so sad to the point that i woke up on Friday morning and the first thing that clearly came to my mind was " I Hate This World " and i whispered it under my breath.. it's really sad.. as i sat up by the side of my bed, i paused there as I let the reality of what i just said sink in..

As i joined the elite few of my company that passed SOC and got at least an IPPT silver or gold for our 3km morning run in skeletal battle order with rifle, there was no mood to sing any song, no mood to give a shit for whatever i was doing.. I had no mood at all.. But i had no choice, i had to run it.. Led by my OC himself..

I can tell you, the run was way much tiring than SOC itself and it can be supported by the exhausted, drained up look of my OC as he sat by the chinup bars with his shirt off and him panting after the run..

But i ran through it all the way.. so many people fell out and just walked but i continued to run.. driven by a fervor i never realised i had it in me.. it was not like the kind of thing that i'd like.. but i ran with the fervor of hatred.. i was still burning with the fire of hating this world.. and i cried.. amidst the dripping sweat off my brow.. tears flowed from my eyes and my face grimaced in sadness.. but no one saw it.. coz the tears were integrated with my sweat and everyone was occupied with their own running and exhaustion..

i felt a little bit better.. but still overall sad.. i didn't let my bunkmates nor my buddy know about it.. i can't show it to them.. they all look up to me.. it will be a real letdown to them if they knew how disappointed i was and how i let such a matter affect me..

i'm still disappointed though.. and trying hard to set it aside..

it hurts the most when you've given your best in all things that you do and you don't get the reward for it.. i mean it's like i've put in my best, the results show it but why? why?

sometimes i don't understand..

i'll just have to wait until after CNY to know..

2010-01-31T18:49:00.001+08:00

Another fun and interesting week of BSLC..

Had a 2 day 1 night urban operations training somewhere up in lim chu kang along jalan murai.. real fun.. though the SAW is a real hassle to manuever with, in the tight corners and spaces.

And of course.. we learnt new things..

the most important thing that we all have come to neglect but i have never put down it's importance is the SAF Insect Repellant.. LOL.. Here's why.. in the night.. i traditionally would smear blobs of the gel along the cuffs of my sleeve and my collar.. not putting any on my skin for fear of the notorious burn that the insect repellant would cause if excessively applied to the skin.. key word here is excessive.. i don't know how much the amount "excessive" is.. and i don't want to try to know that.. until..

until my buddy (Fad) who was sleeping on my leftside woke up another buddy (Ivan) of ours who was sleeping on my right to shine light on his face and check out something.. so in the commotion i woke up and also took a look at my buddy's face and..

And goddamn his upper lip was swollen like a grape..!!! He got bitten by some bug..

instantly i turned around and took out my tube of insect repellant, squeezed out a blob on my palm and rubbed it even on my hands and smeared it all over my face.. LOL..!! Ivan did the same thing.. LOL.. and Fad was like cursing us for his misfortune and we were laughing at him like mad..
it took like half a day for the swelling to subside and throughout the time we all made fun of Fad..

the following day, on thursday we had our final SOC test which I passed as well..

then the highlight of the week.. Section Live Firing..!!!

i'm assigned as the section commander of my detail which comprised of most of my sectionmates.. as per any live firing exercise.. we were to conduct a dry run/practice using blanks first.. the daytime dry run was done with little mistakes.. and i was confident that the live firing run would run smoothly..

And then it was time for the live run.. i was nervous but surprisingly i was calm throughout.. my heart was not pounding as hard as i expected it to be.. maybe coz i was the leader of my detail and i cannot show them that i'm afraid.. fear is contagious..

And so it began.. as per every fire and movement drill.. the section commander would advance forward first while the rest provide cover.. so you could imagine the environment i was in.. i had to run forward amidst my section firing live rounds around me.. real scary by theory but kinda not in actual movement.. after the run was completed.. i felt a great satisfaction.. it was fun.. and it was done good.. no mistakes were made.. we did it real good..

the night run was the same just that it's rather dark but the moon was on full that friday night and the moonlight provided nice eerie glow all around..

all in all.. this week was great..

highlight of the coming week..

Exercise GrandSlam back in the 'homeland' of Pulau Tekong..

2010-01-23T23:40:00.000+08:00

Been a really tough, mentally challenging and physically draining week..

I had SOC which i passed with a timing of 9.32.

I had my ippt where i finally obtained gold.. finally.. after all that hard work.. freaking standing broad jump.. lol.. after i completed all the static stations and knew i was on gold i ran the 2.4km like i never ran before.. ran till i could puke phlegm from my lungs..

basically this week was all about navigation..

damn tiring.. compass course was conducted at the 'backyar' of pasir laba camp.. some knolls and steep slopes just behind the camp.. day and night compass movement.. it was kinda fun doing the navigation.. but just a bitch to go up and down like a 60degree inclined slope all the time..

terrain reading march was also another physically draining event.. we had to navigate our way along the outside of PLC.. again.. i never thought that jurong would be so damn hilly.. went up and down and up and down and up again then down again.. really freaking tiring.. was a big surprise when my detail turned out to be the first to finish the entire thing.. the night march was kinda easy.. coz it was simply backtracking to a previous point then returning back to coy line..

then the main highlight of the entire navigation course was Exercise Gypsy which is basically a navigation exercise through the forested area of lower mandai.. the night before we were tasked to set the navigation data sheet and whatnot in preparation for the exercise.. my detail consisted of ppl from section 1 and my section.. my self-assigned detail IC was damn enthusiastic on planning out the route of navigation and all that stuff.. i questioned his ways but for whatever nonsense that he said to convince me the words that i hated the most that came out of his mouth was "trust me.."..

there's this saying that "before one leads, one should learn to follow".. so follow i did.. my section mates were damn uneasy about the planning done.. i told them not to worry for whatever happens.. should we get lost.. we know who to blame.. don't say that we didn't bring it up.. we did.. our detail IC is just too fucked up and stubborn to listen to us.. fuck him.. i fucked him up back in bmt.. i can do it again here..

and so we did get lost.. we got fucking lost.. really fucking lost.. fuck him fuck him.. we got lost coz of him.. "Trust me" my ass.. trust u to get us lost and walk around in circles in a place where we don't even know where the fuck we were..

so me and my section mates and a guy from his section set off to find where the fuck we were to at least get ourselves to at least another checkpoint and get our bearings from there.. so we got our coordinates thanks to the PIE then we made our way from there.. from there we finally manage to navigate thru to another checkpoint.. but the exercise was cut and we had to head back to command..

night navigation was fun but one hell of a hard time to navigate thru the thick undergrowth.. we didn't manage to find our night checkpoint again.. but at least this time that asshole didn't lead us.. exercise cut and we headed back to coy line.. reached back at around 1130pm.. so couldn't book out on friday.. booked out just now.. freaking tired but glad that it's all over..

before exercise gypsy however..
My OC did gave the coy a talk on how things are going.. the weeks are gonna get much tougher.. and the way he treated us for the whole of the past week was just a brief insight on how things are going to be.. damn.. if things are going to continue in that way.. it sure will be damn tough..
how come the other company's don't get it like mine does..? Ryan's coy is like so damn welfare.. jealous.. to a certain extent ya.. but in the end i know that it's through these tough times that i know it would make a better person out of me, a much tougher, more resilient, a much harder me.. desensitized and paralyzed to all things weak.. so that in future can lead my men much better.. to become a better commander.. a better leader..

i can already feel a change in me.. it's not something that i decided to change.. it's like the events around me changed me.. they say change is constant.. but this change is very significant.. i even talk differently now.. i see things differently now as well.. SISPEC really moulds leaders and commanders..

Speaking of leading men.. word around the block is that for my batch, most of us would end up in Guards unit.. Maybe that's why our OC (who is also a Guardsman) is training us hard.. maybe it's to get ourselves prepped up for it.. and our OC also did tell us that the Guards are one level higher than normal infantrymen and that the physical demands are also much higher.. In that level with them are the Commandos, Naval Diving Unit.. for example.. it's 30seconds lesser to attain an Ippt Gold for units in that level..

ahh.. that can come later.. now it's just to complete BSLC.. in 3 more weeks.. this will end and my professional term will start.. so before that comes.. i shall focus on what's left to come in the next few weeks..

it's gonna be physically draining and mentally challenging in the weeks ahead.. i don't even have enough time for myself.. if it goes on like this.. how to meet my wives..?!?!?! AARRGGGHHH..!!!

and a funny maths equation was brought up.. lol.. ask me if u want to know it..

2010-01-17T15:51:00.001+08:00

It's been a hectic past week..

field camp week.
BSLC field camp is something really different than the field camp of BMT..
The big difference is of course the location and terrain..
The former's on the homeland and the latter's in Tekong.
The field camp was located in a heavily forested area somewhere along the side of KJE in between bukit batok and bukit gombak area.. The rather weird and funny thing about this field camp is that here we are training amongst lalang as tall as myself, i can just stand in a field of it and not get noticed, hitting the deck belly first on rocky tracks, getting impaled by mimosa trees (yes.. mimosa trees.. not plants.. so u can just imagine how tall the mimosa were), sleeping cowboy-style under the trees on top of ant nests and there.. there over the distance, peeking out from above the treeline.. are HDB flats.. yes.. HDB flats..

It's really kinda werid and comical to see civilized housing and yet here we are training under the scorching sun and cold wind-blown rain..

The training conducted was all about section training and section fire & movement.. so most of the time.. it was listening, or rather fighting sleep and nodding off to lessons then watching a practical demonstration by the instructors then breaking up to our sections to practice it out..

Training was carried out by practicing the drills numerous times till we get it right and do it as if it was second nature.. Not only did we have to learn and practice each individual's role in the section.. we also had to learn the role and positioning of every other person as often our positions were rotated around and we also had to learn to coverup a gap should any person be a casualty.. And the most important part about this aspect is that we are being trained to be section commanders so we must know where each individual is and what role they play..

During the course of this field camp.. i was one of the 'fortunate' few who was tasked with holding one of the 3 organic weapons.. mainly the Ultimax 100 otherwise better known as the SAW.. and during the course of this field camp.. my uncertainty of using the SAW has been transformed into confident, fast-moving weapon handling with my SAW.. though it weighs more than a normal SAR21.. a SAR21 is 3.82kg whereas a SAW weighs approx just over 5kg.. i kinda like my SAW.. and my staff sergeant even taught me several new things about my SAW which has increased my confidence handling it.. And proning has been made much easier due to the bipod that's attached to the SAW.. i kinda miss using the SAR21.. i have found an easier way to hold the weapon in standing shoulder position due to it's compact, ergonomic design.. the SAW is kinda hard to hold up standing shoulder due to it's length and weight.. But all in all.. this field camp has thought me how to master another weapon..

Before i end this off.. there is one thing that's rather indirect but it's something that i like about field camp.. it's the after effects of it.. the amount of physical exertion that we went thru during any outfield activity is bound to be rewarded with enhanced strength and stamina.. this is good news for me as i aim to achieve IPPT Gold in 2 weeks time.. i missed out 4cm on my standing broad jump and 14 seconds of my 2.4km run to attain gold.. partly it was due to the rain.. but no excuses now..

till then.. so far.. 2010 has been going on fine..

Starting to miss my wives.. LOL..

2010-01-10T06:47:00.001+08:00

Think i'm going abit crazy..

i volunteered for COS duty on a weekend..!!
GAGAGAGAGAGAGAGAA..!!
(even my laughter is going crazy.. XD )

And i got no phoneline.. isn't that great..!?!?!

Reporting for duty in a few moments time..

2010-01-03T15:52:00.001+08:00

New year new year..
goodbye 2009..
hello 2010..

looking back.. 2009 has been a really eventful year.. now's the time where i load up the blog archives of past months of 2009 in multiple tabs and read them to refresh my mind of the things that i went through, how i felt and how my life was run the past year..

let's have a look back..
let's see..

there's SPINNOVEX,
then there's me being attracted to this particular girl, and finding out that she's attached.. bleargh.. =P

then there's me preparing for my first marathon Adidas Sundown.
my graduation from 3 years of study at SP.
then there's me working a short stint at haagen dazs.. a good experience.. learnt some ice cream creation recipes along the way as i worked the kitchen crew.

then there's the actual sundown marathon.. so much for preparation.. i didn't run well in it much less even run it.. i got injured halfway and walked the rest of it..

then it's my second parttime job which was at Red Dynasty Paintball park.. a great place.. and i developed a new interest in paintball.. a competitive interest.. soon i'll be back after quite a long hiatus from skirmishes.. gonna get gear anytime soon..

then i left the job coz it was fasting month and i wanted to settle down before i enlist..

then it was the boredom of fasting month.. lol.

then it's my rediscovery of my love for cards and started a collection of it.. started to learn card tricks and card flourishes..

OH YA..!!
THEN.. i was introduced to Kara by my muffin peiwen and nowi'm just simple obssessed with KARA..
Especially with Nicole.. OMG.. sexiness and cuteness redefined.. lol

then it's my enlistment.. ( for further details on my enlistment, please refer to Dec 10 2009 entry )

and then it's POP and block leave..

then it's SISPEC for BSLC..

and then..

and then i realise that i used alot of "then"s.. lol.. i bet some of u readers actually smile or some even laugh at this..

Spent new year's eve and new year's day at home just resting..
and yesterday, spent it with the gang for desmond's bday at marina mandarin..

so now.. i'm heading into the 3rd week in BSLC..

for the year 2010..
i have no definite resolutions..
Just to do the best i can in whatever i get, and whatever that comes my way..
wait.. i think that's my resolution for this year.. ahahahha..

here's to end this off..
wishing all you readers out there a good 2010..

2009-12-24T17:38:00.002+08:00

WARNING:
The following entry contains explicit use of vulgarities. If offended please do not carry on reading any further..

FUCK OFF..!! FUCK OFF..!! FUCK OFF..!!

FUCK YOU..!! FUCK YOU..!! FUCK YOU..!!

DON'T YOU FUCKING TALK TO ME..!!

I FUCKING HATE YOU..!!

KTHANXBAI..

XDXDXD

2009-12-10T23:00:00.001+08:00

hey hey hey..
wat's up ya'll...

been a very very long time since i last updated.. 10 weeks ago was my last entry.. having said that.. in those 10 weeks.. 9 weeks of it have been spent on the island of Tekong for my BMT in the army for my mandatory NS.

And now that i have passed out.. i have plenty of time on my hands for an entry..

i definitely alot to say and describe in vivid detail of all the times and activities i have spent during those 9 weeks.. but.. if i really did.. then this would be a very very long entry..

i shall try my best to keep this short and simple, and sweet.

I was from Apache Company, Platoon 4, Section 1. It's in School 1, Ladang Camp for those who are familiar with the island. My bunk is on the 5th floor. So it's kinda a pain in the ass to climb 5 floors everytime. But i can see that my thighs are now much more muscular and well-defined. XDXD

It's a great company with great commanders.

I made many new friends during my time here. Friends i believe will be there for me coz we went thru shit together and we went thry fun times together..

My section is crazy i tell u.. there is not a single day or night where the noise level of laughter is low.. there's always laughing and crazy antics.

And my platoon too.. We are the platoon that's extreme.. the treatment that we get are on both sides of the extremity level. Meaning, if we do good, we really get extreme good treatment.. But if we screw things up, then the treatment we get would be extreme physical punishment.. And.. i kinda like it.. XDXD

I have been trained in many ways both physical and mentally.. and in addition to that, trained in military skills like weapons handling etc.. But the fitness part is the thing i believe have been most enlightening to me.. since i love sports.. the fitness activities have really enriched me with new ways and new techniques to enhance myself physically..

and of course.. the military skills learned is an enlightening thing too coz it's something that's only exclusive to the army..

by far.. to me.. the toughest part of these 9 weeks is the week spent in the jungle of Tekong for field camp. The most grueling outdoor experience i have ever encountered.. it was really a test of my mental toughness and threshold level to take punishment..

I don't know whether to call it a good thing or a bad thing but for the whole 5 days of the field camp.. It rained every single day of it.. Every single fucking day of it.. ( LOL.. finally a vulgarity )..
The good thing about it is that the training is cut short and such..

But the bad thing is.. We're outdoors..!!! Everything is wet, damp soggy and wet and damp and soggy.. it's useless keeping dry.

And the mud.. Oh My God the mud.. The Mud..!! The fucking Mud..!! it's not those mud that u get from water logged fields and such.. those are nothing as compared to the muddy conditions i was in.. the mud was so clayey.. so thick.. it's like those orange thick clayey soil u see in those constructions sites or those orange soil that u see when they replant grass.. the mud fucking sticks to ur boots that walking is such a chore.. Mud fucking becomes ur friend.. it's literally everywhere.. from underneath ur fingernails, on ur face, to ur socks, on ur clothes, in ur hair ( or wat's left of it ), even up ur buttcrack..!! really.. i'm not kidding..!!

and they made us cry..!!! ( shall leave this to a personal explanation if curious to know.. )

I get to go for live firing and cool stuff like that.. cool and fun things to do like the SOC..!! LOL..!! My FS taught us during SOC that if we should do any of the stations.. we do it like a Ninja..!! So much to the extent that everything that we do that's considered stylish or acrobatic or flamboyant.. we do it " Like a Ninja.. "
But really.. SOC is damn fun.. it's like.. the military playground.. sadly though.. for my company.. we had to cancel SOC 3 times due to the weather..

and of course.. the ever popular question whenever anyone mentions Tekong.. Tales of the supernatural.. i have had my experiences.. ooooo.. BOO..!!! but dowan tell u.. at least not here..

think i shall stop here for now.. should u readers want to know anything else more in further detail and animated explanation.. just meet up with me..

and right now.. i'm just waiting for my posting.. 18 dec.. that's the date..

2009-10-02T19:03:00.002+08:00

1 week to enlistment..

Kinda excited.. yeah i said it right.. EGGSS-cited..

anyways.. fasting month over.. Celebrated Hari Raya.. got to finally shoot without feeling so damn tired and thirsty..
Greenpacket collection was on a high in terms of value which is rather surprising coz isn't it suppose to be an economic downturn or something like that? I got lots of packets with 10buck notes inside..

WooHoo..!!! Money..!! Money..!! Money..!! Must be Funny..!! In a rich man's world..

Managed to break 150bucks on the first day.. aint that cool..? Not anymore.. the money's gone.. LOL.. kinda a big spender.. spent most it on food.. yeah food.. after fasting month must savour all those delicacies that have been missing for a month..

well.. on the contrary to my previous post..
i have found something to do besides all those activities that i listed down in my previous post.
Little did I know that this activity i have newly founds isn't that new at all. In fact i've been dealing with it all my life ever since i was little.

Cards -- yea that's the new activity and it has to do with cards. From DragonBall Z to Pokemon to WWE Raw Deal to Magic: The Gathering.. Just the list of card collection i've ever had since i was young..

From the 20cent a card turn-the-knob-card-dispensing-machine in DragonBall Z..

To starter deck with tokens in Pokemon.

Buying and selling cards to complete a superstar's arsenal of superstar-specific cards.

And Magic: The Gathering. One of the best card games i've ever played. It's so great a card game that you can actually learn from it. To the point that a deck can be the personification of the owner. And that every single card has it's own worth no matter how common or uncommon or rare it is. But unfortunately i cannot continue with this wonderful game. Few ppl play it nowadays and those that are, are into buying cards to make their decks strong. Which beats the whole idea of creating a deck out of watever u have and being able to be good with it. And also beats the idea of having booster packs if they're just gonna buy the cards anyway..

anyways.. the "new" card game that i'm into now is *drumroll*

Normal Playing Cards..

u know.. like poker cards? thirteen ranks of each of the four French suits, diamonds (♦), clubs (♣), hearts (♥) and spades (♠)..? Those Normal Playing Cards lah..

well.. i have taken up the art of card manipulating, card tricks and card flourishes.

doing so have opened me up to a world of playing cards that i've never seen before and i am interested in collecting many different variations in playing cards.

Variations in the playing cards can be from the colours of the card, the design and colour of the back, even the design of the Face cards, and most importantly (to me) the texture.
Texture can range from the common plastic coated finish, to air cushion, to linoid finish, to UV500 air flow..

sounds cool huh?
most certainly is..

2009-09-03T23:06:00.001+08:00

Boredom reigns thick in the air..
An unbearable ennui..
Mists of uncertainty and weariness clouds the surface..
Vast empty plains of inactivity..

That is the -- Half-baked Autonomous Frenzied Insidious Zone..

Sounds creepy huh..?
And a boring place..
In case you haven't notice. the acronym of the place I just mentioned spells out __________.
I'm actually bored enough to find words for each letter.

Trying my utmost best to keep myself from just lazing around infront of the tv or doze off on my mattress of a bed..
And yes.. i am freaking bored out of my life..

well let's list down what i can do..
Bow training - it gets tiring after awhile and the fasting ain't helping..
watching tv - nothing interesting to watch..
reading - hmm..

yeah reading.. I haven't done any serious reading in a long time.. the last time i ever read something worth my good read was Dan Brown's Deception Point. But now.. now that JP2 has an interesting bookstore called San's Bookshop which also rents books out. It has a very wide range of novels from fantasy to sci-fi. Fantasy & sci-fi.. two categories of genres that I have had trouble looking for in the past.

Fantasy -- Strange for a guy like me to be reading fantasy but it's a certain type of fantasy that i'm interested in. The fantasy universe of Magic: The Gathering which is a card game which somehow the makers have integrated storylines into the game expansions. And in the past, i have had trouble searching for the books. But i found them -- in San's Bookshop. But they're rather incomplete, at least they have them.

Sci-fi -- Boys will be boys i have to admit, and there's no limit to the imagination of a boy that reaches into the outer limits of known Space and beyond the stars. From the futuristic Power Rangers to the Transformers. Nothing ceases to amaze us boys when it comes to vehicles and weapons of the future.
Adding on to that, what i want to bring into particular attention is the world of Warhammer 40,000, a popular tabletop game that became so popular it got marketed into other forms such as card games, the thing that leapt the game to stardom -- a computer game by the title: Dawn of War and of course in the form of novels. And again you can find them in San's Bookshop and surprisingly in order.

What attracts me to this world of Warhammer 40,000 ( the 40,000 refers to the human race 31,000 years in the future ) is the gothic fiction. It tells of the human race set in a distant future where Man has united as one on earth and now transcend the borders of known Space. And Man has become some sort of an occupational force, going from world to world to conquer them and bring them under the rule of Man. And they do the conquering by means of Space Marines, giant, genetically enhanced super soldiers with world-destroying firepower and unswerving fanatical loyalty to the Emperor of Man. It's just very nice and beyond description for me to properly express how i like it very much. There's bound to be bloodshed ( somehow i realise that destroying and killing things seems to be the enjoyment of us boys ), there's brotherhood, faith, corruption, betrayal, and even the mystics of the unknown.. it's really great i tell u..

And there is a rather famous series of books that have been published on the Warhammer Universe and it's basically the history of how the warhammer universe came to be what it is that we see in the video game. It's called the Horus Heresy and it's a series of novels dating back to 2006 and still publishing material on it. Even though the basis of the idea of how the Horus Heresy played out and ended has been made known. The range of novels has only covered up to a certain part.

I've started on the series in late july but due to work haven't got into spending time reading it. But now that i've stopped working, i can continue with the rest of the series. So far they've published 13 books. I've just finished reading book 2 hence the sudden expressiveness of my boredom, waiting for money to buy the next book.

woah. didn't know i would write this long.. lol.

2009-08-13T22:39:00.000+08:00

Phiten..

Some may have heard of it.. It's a well-known brand of product which includes items like necklaces, wristbands and the like..

An excerpt from Phiten's website -- Phiten products work with your body’s energy system, helping to regulate and balance the flow of energy throughout your body. Proper energy balance helps to alleviate discomfort, speed recovery, and counteract fatigue. Athletes find that they tire less easily and recover faster from intense physical activity.The Phild Processed material regulates the body's energy flow by stablizing ions. Phiten products stabilize the energy, permitting a greater flow of energy with less waste. Fatigue sets in later and recovery time is shortened.

However, fatigue is not caused by an imbalance of ions.. So it's not that scientifically justified.. But i decided to buy one and try it out for myself.. And..my verdict on it is that no matter how scientifically unjustified it is.. somehow, someway.. it DOES work.. it really does.. i used mine during archery and somehow.. i'm not that easily tired anymore.. i dunno whether it's a psychological thing but i'm glad that it works -- i don't care psychologically or not.. I now even use it whenever i'm tired and won't feel tired anymore after about a few minutes wearing it.. i'm not trying to vouch for this item.. i'm just giving my two cents on it actually working..

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moving on..

i've been feeling kinda down lately.. i dunno why.. losing my appetite.. losing an interest in almost everything.. kinda feel easily upset about everything.. i dunno wat's wrong.. kinda emo..
maybe it's the fasting month coming up real soon.. maybe.. could be..

I've been giving some thought over myself for the past 2 weeks. i realise that my life has sort of kinda reached a stalemate over the past few months leading up to my enlistment date.. there's like a stagnant moment in my life.. the occasional paintball game, cage outings and archery trainings are injecting some life into my otherwise staled life.. I know most ppl would say "Hey why don't u just go out..? Go out on a date or something.. "..

Well i do go out sometimes, even to orchard by my lonesome.. but that just doesn't seem to change anything.. Dates - pffttt.. i don't have that much girl friends to go out with.. most of them are attached or newly attached.. or rather pretty busy with their own dates.. but surprisingly i managed to get some 'dates' over the past 2 weeks.. i'm not romantically involved with anyone so it's not that big.. it may be big in terms of catching up on things, new things in their lives that they want to share or new things in my life that they wanna know.. being on these dates.. or rather.. the days leading up to these dates.. i would be pondering on myself as an invidual.. as a single.. "When will i have someone to call my own..? ".. i dunno.. many ppl ask me.. and i tell them the same thing " No girl would want to start a relationship with a guy going into NS ".. simply said.. if u do come to think about it.. it does make sense and need no further explanation.. in addition to that.. i still don't understand much about the opposite gender.. in particular, these dates that i've had over the past 2 weeks..

Dates, in my opinion should be a fun time spent with someone.. laughing, joking, the occasional flirtatious quip, a time to get to know each other better, a dinner perhaps or even a movie, or, if among romantic individuals, holding hands, a nice warm cuddle or perhaps even a quick peck, and countless things to list down.. but the main idea would be having a great enjoyabe time with someone..
And in my opinion, proper dating etiquette would be to only be thinking about and collaborating with that particular person u're dating with..

These particular dates that i had really got me thinking.. i don't know whether i made a mistake or it's a lesson for me to learn.. but somehow, from these experiences, I've come to realise that I don't mean much to people who mean much to me.. there u go.. i said it.. that fact hit me the most hardest.. i felt totally lost.. it's like a part of me just tore away.. once again, i felt really hollow and empty inside..

another experience, or i would rather deem it as a mistake, that i learned is a rather complicated one.. I realised how timing can be so precious.. how its better to let someone know that u have feelings for that person and not take ur time to inform that person.. coz u never know that the moment u gather enough courage that person might be snapped up by somebody else.. and there goes ur chance.. and u'd have to wait -- a long time for another "right one" to come by..

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2009-07-26T22:02:00.000+08:00

What a waste..
What a real damn waste..

If only the doctor i went to consult was much better at dispensing medication, i could have been playing in the mini RD challenge. In the end. i spent 2 days (thurs, fri) still having watery stool and abdominal pain.

So i went to the doctor's again on saturday morning, this time the doctor that i wanted to consult, that i should have consulted, was on duty. the main doctor, u know the one that runs the clinic. He's my family doctor.
On wednesday night, the doctor on duty was one of those 'fill-in' docs, u know those that fills in for the main doc when the main doc takes off.
So he (main doc) just gave me two packets of pills instead of the whopping 6 packets that the previous doc gave.

And guess wat. Those 2 packets of tablets worked wonders. After i downed them, i could feel the effects of it working. And now, i'm fully recovered from diarrhoea..

But it's not this diarrhoea thing that's the main highlight here.. it's the time wasted by it..

I could have enjoyed the best of two worlds..
Attend the RD mini challenge AND go for the archery camp..
it's really disappointing to miss out on the RD mini-challenge coz it's the closest i can get to a paintball competition before i enlist. Already Leg 3 of SPNS is being held on the 18th of October which i would still be in NS first-2-weeks-confinement. I don't see it being postponed to a later date coz of the management behind it concrete on the event date.. this is really just sad.. and the forum is alive with everyone posting about wat fun they had at the minichallenge..
I bet when i get back to work on wednesday, the ppl at RD would still be talking about it..

oh well.. it's done and over.. though it is kinda sad..

and the back aches bring back memories of a sweet past.

2009-07-23T13:00:00.000+08:00

Damn sick right now..
Having diarrhoea.. which lead to dehydration which lead to an immense high fever.. goddamn never felt so 'good' before.. ahahah..

went to the doctor.. while sitting outside the clinic. there was this teenage boy in sec school uniform who did a fake sneeze in front of my face then said that he had H1N1.. fucking could have gotten out of my seat and knock him out cold, call the police and tell them that he's a public nuisance, inciting false information.. bloody fucker.. cursed him so much.. he's probaby in trouble or in some kind of pain right now.. ahahaha.. i feel so evil..

well.. this stupid turn of events is really making things difficult for me..
no work today. no money.
no money means not enough cash to buy paint coz i really wanted to play on the 25th for Jit's team.. then there's the training camp.. how am i suppose to pass the year1s their shirts..?
hopefully by tonight. i'll be well..

2009-07-21T10:19:00.000+08:00

Sometimes.. I just need to be reminded how much archery means to me..

2009-07-13T20:48:00.000+08:00

Something different i did two sundays ago.. which was to ref a training match the team called seekers were conducting, just a skirmish among themselves.. really something different coz these guys are at a higher level then the customers that i usually ref.. coz u can stand like a metre from a guy who's under fire and u won't get hit by stray balls.. that's how accurate they are.. and the inflatable bunkers absorbs the impact of the balls so the balls won't ricochet and hit you.. it was also interesting coz kiko was there to give advice to everyone.. most particularly the front player.. which is good coz its the position i'm going to play..

on the following tuesday.. me, dingyi and kiko reset the speedball field.. and since we had some freetime.. fuzz and kiko taught some fundamentals of the game and of handling the marker, switching hands, snapshooting, etc.. afterwards, fuzz invited me to a 1-on-1 match.. which was interesting and damn fun.. the first match.. okay.. i am a lil noob on this.. so Game On.. and bloody hell i lost sight of him at the beginning.. so i shot a few bunkers in an attempt to keep see him tucked in as i figure out my next move.. and i saw him.. so i ran back to a tombstone which was abit back from where i was behind a forward tombstone.. and just as i was about to popout and do a headcheck.. he came out from my left in an attempt to bunker me.. and we traded out.. but i got him.. a few bounced off my trousers.. so first match over and he gave me a few tips and pointers on how to improve my game.. he said i was playing abit too reserved.. not good for a front player.. so next match.. i ran forward to a bunker.. and bloodyhell i lost sight of him again.. so i went up to the centre temple and did a headcheck to my left.. and wad do u know.. fuzz was also doing a headcheck but he was first to react and shot me in the head - twice.. Ouch..
Game review.. it was just a case of fastest fingers as i did everything right in the game..
Later on in the day, i watched fuzz and kiko go on a 1-on-1.. which of coz kiko won.. very very aggro player.. of coz, he's like the world cup asian champions twice in a row and current defending champ.. take it from the master..

on thursday.. no work.. but play.. yesh play paintball with my ex-colleagues from haagen dazs.. it was damn fun.. apparently i'm the common target for everyone.. maybe coz i was wearing bright red.. james and siti like bloodyhell aiming me all the time.. and to make things much more "fun"..my colleagues who were working namely ivan, jeremy and kiko took potshots at me.. Kiko shot the bunker i was in.. he purposedly aimed off of course, if he were to hit me, he would have hit me.. Ivan's potshots both missed me.. LOL..!! but jeremy got me on my mask i guess.. don't rmb coz i was shot all over by james..
after the paintball game we went out for dinner at cineleisure pastamania.. a first for me.. and that's when the "balls" thing started coz siti made a silly quote on balls.. so thruout the night.. almost everything we talked about had an element of "balls" in it.. after dinner..we went back to wisma haagendazs for a fondue treat by james.. it was nice to be back without the person that made my haagendazs stint miserable.. Jet was there and a nice surprise coz he still remembered me..

i had to work on saturday.. and i offered to go to sembawang in replace of keith.. which was fun.. coz we had a break and me and kiko and sham had a really dumb and silly conversation.. the topic shall be kept confidential..

and i only missed a weekend of archery and the whole word suddenly misses me..

2009-07-02T00:22:00.002+08:00

BTO-ed..!! WOOT WOOT..!!

[EDIT] For the benefit of most my readers.. BTO stands for Basic Tournament Orientation. It's a short 'course' i have to take in order to become a tournament paintball player.. thanks shwajuan for the reminder of edit [END OF EDIT XD]

wasn't as difficult as i thought it would be.. finally got to meet calgar otherwise better known as small ben.. briefed on the various tournament rules and ref hand signs.. then off to practical test..

since there were 7 ppl that turned up for the BTO.. it was 3 v 4. and to think i would be in the 4.. i got drafted into the 3man team.. why..? coz i have 'experience'.. LOL.. like c'mon man.. my teammates like have their own mask and their own paintball gear.. and there's this other guy who also has his own gear and is in the seeker family.. why not the have-their-own-gear vs the don't-have-their-own-gear..? LOL.. i felt so out of place man.. lucky ben junior was kind enough to lend me his dye I3s.. so at least i would look the part..

and MAN..!! the DYE I3s are simply amazing...!! the first thing that came to my notice was the frame foam.. it was smooth & soft yet it was strong and sturdy.. waaayy much better then the house Java masks that i use.. the foam just sits onto my face so the mask just fits nicely onto my face.. the next thing that came to my notice was the lens.. ben junior had just changed to a smoke thermal lens.. and damn.. the vision provided by the mask.. u can't even see the sides of the frame.. it has a great degree of peripheral vision..

so the match started in field 3 which is better coz last i saw the BTO was held in field 1.. my teammates were damian and jit, short for jitwei.. damian went left.. jit went right.. so i went centre..
10seconds..!! and game on.. run to a bunker hide.. damian went into the snake.. got 2 guys.. jit got one.. i got one guy who got shot while he was on the run and he ran out of bounds too.. so we won the first match..

2nd match was 'interesting'.. there was some paint on my marker, it was suspicious coz i knew no one got shot on the marker.. lol.. indeed it was suspicious.. the match ended in a draw coz i played on due to that paint on my marker was deemed as a hit.. and that's a one for one penalty..

and lol.. that broken paintball was there on purpose.. small ben said that in actual tournaments.. the marshals won't give a shit.. so he's teaching us to prevent such things from happening in actual tournaments..

so on 28th june 08.. i got BTO-ed..

after that.. damn.. i dunno wat got into faz and sham.. but we, together with kiko, challenged ben, heechai, jeramine and paul to a basketball match.. goddamn man.. lol.. wat brownies team.. shit
ahahaha
damn funny lah..
we got thrashed man.. LOL.. why of course.. fuck man they have tall ppl on their team.. ahahahah
it's damn fun..

oh well..
now that i'm BTO-ed.. i have to find a team.. sham invited me to join his team if i want to.. there's also team RD boys.. LOL.. but firstly i got to get the equipment..

sadly.. SPNS leg 3 has been cancelled.. the final leg would be on 18th october if i'm no mistaken..
sad.. just when i wanted to ask someone to come watch me play since it's held at pasir ris park and it's near her place..
=(=(=(

ouhwell..

BTO-ed..!! Woot Woot..!!

2009-06-26T12:21:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG...!!!

Transformers 2 is da bomb..!! coz megan fox is the sex bomb..!!
omg omg omg..!! damn hot damn hot damn hot...!!!
*DROOLS*

okay.. so.. while having dinner on a wednesday night i have songren urgently msn-ing me to give him a call.. thought it was something super urgent/important.. then it turned out that he needed someone to replace a vacant advanced booking ticket for transformers 2.. so i took it lor.. can get to meet up with the gang at least.. so jon picked me up in his dad's fortuner at pioneer station and off i was to tiong bahru plaza..

did a whole lot of talking on the way.. realised that the vacant ticket was supposed to be for jon's gf, lurvies, who apparently isn't feeling too well to go out..

met up with the gang at coffee bean.. chitchat till the movie timing.. went to watch..

*DETAILS OF THE MOVIE SHALL NOT BE PUBLISHED HERE DUE TO COPYRIGHT SCRIPT, SPOILERS AND TO KEEP U PPL WHO HAVE YET TO WATCH IT ON THE EDGE OF UR SEAT*

ehehehehhehe..

oh well.. look at the date. its like coming to the end of june.. that's like 3 months and a few days to my enlistment.. and the fasting month is within those 3 months.. wahh.. damn long to my enlistment..

BTO this sunday.. wonder how will i fare..? sure kena bully again by the RD staff.. LOL.. looking forward to playing tournament paintball..

but one thing that's holding me back is the dough needed to at least get the necessary equipment to play speedball.. i'm already struggling to buy my archery stuff.. and now to pickup paintball.. lol.. that's 2 expensive sports in my repertoire.. but paintball is so fun.. so aggressive.. so cool.. lol..

i'm struggling on my ownself to get a paintball mask.. i'm going for a blue DYE I4.. small mask but wat the heck i have a small head.. can my little 'sis' help me lend me some money..?? ehhehhehehehe..

i can almost imagine 3MC taking up paintball and forming a speedball team..

Des and Sam playing back..
Me and Ahmad playing mid..
then Ian and dzaki playing front..

whooo...
just imagine..

2009-06-22T00:15:00.000+08:00

Alrrriiiggghhhtttt...
Time for an update..

been working more than wat's been scheduled for me due to covering or replacing for my colleagues..
Beginning to get used to the technical and safety problems that come up in paintball and ways to handle it.. and also.. ways to handle different 'types' of customers.. though.. from the bosses.. i need to speak up more.. lol..
I've been thought many things equipment-wise about paintball.. and in those rare free time that i have, i get the chance to watch the tournament players do their thang and as i watch them, those tournament players who are working.. ppl like Faz, Nick and Sufyan give pointers on how to do this.. how to do that.. what to look out for on the field..
It's been great working here at RD.. the people are great.. the pay so-so.. but it's the environment that keeps me wanting to get back and look forward to the next day of work..
And the guys there man.. DAMN.. the guys there.. WWHOOOO...
I LOVE IT..!!

I had my first paintball game last evening.. a NOOB match.. lol.. it's the new staff against the new staff.. so it was kinda fun.. LOL.. the weird weather was not helping.. always fogging up my glasses or my mask lens.. so i could barely see anything.. lol.. what impressed the other non-playing players was my speed lol.. so Faz told me that i would make a great Front player.. lol.. like i actually have this feeling even before he told me.. coz i read up on the various roles a front or mid or back player has to do.. and felt like Front was for me and based on my performance.. and Faz's encouragement/advice.. that cemented my suitable position of play..

Oh yeaahhh... Front.. i get to do superman slides.. aahahaaah..
Being hit by a paintball doesn't hurt that much anymore even though i got hit like so many bloody times.. LOL..

archery.. made progress.. form is setup differently now.. much more stable.. but just no strength. need to spend more time bow training..

I've been spending alot of my time with yazid ever since he ORD-ed in may.. been meeting him at the gym and he often comes down for trainings.. so it's a good thing now.. i got a training partner to be with.. and can practice compy pressure with him.. coz he's just that damn good..

and oh adelia.. LOL.. i don't work on saturdays.. and USUALLY we have bookings at your site on saturdays.. lol..
And my work schedule is not fixed.. so sometimes i go sembawang.. sometimes i don't.. mostly i don't.. XD

2009-06-11T23:45:00.000+08:00

Seeing them never fails to humble me and spur me on..

2009-06-09T01:45:00.001+08:00

Sunday was my first full-day job at RD.

It was fun man. Think i came a wee bit too early. ahahah.. punctual i was.. 8am was the reporting time.. had to wait for the others to come..
assembled masks then waited for the others to come.

Then they started to come in.. the staff of RD.. Damn cool ppl man.. they're like super cool.. man. beyond description.. just super cool.. got to know their names.. shook hands.. those normal get-to-know-you questions.. man.. theyre really nice ppl.. i'm starting to enjoy my time here..

i was assigned to field 2 which is a rather big field, under the guidance of Faz a fulltimer at RD.. Nice guy with a rapper accent/slang and goes around saying bitch this bitch that.. LOL.. taught me many things.. and of course the others assigned to field 2 were a great help to me.. ppl like sham, hee chai and cheeyong.. Cheeyong the techie.. manning the markers.. looks like a cool job but he's always like "damn.. no..!! why do u ppl have to spoil my markers..!! ".. ahaha.. the QM of paintball..

in-field duty.. i've gotten more relaxed in the field.. not worried about getting shot.. coz i wasn't shot at.. lol.. but unlucky for heechai who even got shot in the groin by some russians.. lol.. the russian customers were a very 'interesting' bunch..

The mask today was good though it was one of those cheap ones.. it didn't press against my glasses.. or maybe coz i wore it right.. lol..

tourney players came down too.. rowdy bunch.. always always cracking jokes.. dancing around.. singing around.. LOL.. but it was cool to watch them train in the speedball field.. the snapshooting that they do.. i just wonder how they walk the trigger on the Spyder Sonix.. it's just amazing.. it's like executing a 50m 80cm yellow shot with a wooden bow..

equipment wise.. i see almost all the staff at RD are also tourney players and they were wearing their jersey pants.. most of them also have their own masks.. i see them using Dye I3s, Vforce Grills and JT proflex.. there was also the latest Dye I4.. but it looks kinda small.. if i were to get one.. i'll get the Dye I3.. cheeyong wears them with his specs.. he doesn't seem to have a problem with them..so i believe i won't too.. but wat colour..? hmm..

anyways.. it was a great first day of work at RD.. really great.. woud love the next 4 months that i spend here..

ouh ya.. here's the webbie to Red Dynasty Paintball..
http://www.weplaypaintball.com

2009-06-04T23:09:00.000+08:00

OOooo.. how nice..

the moment i sent my resume, i got an almost instantaneous reply to come down for an interview..

went for the interview.. got lost on the way there.. LOL.. ended up in some forested back-alley.. creepy place.. like those typical deserted roads with nothing but forests on the side and rows of lampposts that u would expect a pontianak to be standing under one of them.. LOL.. just that this was in the daytime.. nonetheless creepy as hell..

finally found the place.. late by 10minutes.. but they didnt seem to bother.. got interviewed.. told to come back for a trial session in a few days time..

ouh shit.. forgot the mention wat job i got.. it's a job for a sports instructor/facilitator for Red Dynasty Paintball.. yepp yepp.. paintball.. my job scope is just to marshall paintball matches and keep all the stuff clean and in place.. and also to brief the customers on the matches that they're gonna play.. LOL... the words they use these days to describe job positions..

trial session was fun.. learnt how to assemble a paintball mask.. learnt how a marker (the gun) works.. learnt the various rules of the game and hand signs of refereeing a proper paintball match.. and of course.. most importantly -- made new friends..

So i helped to marshall a game. it was fun.. LOL.. i had to stand in the middle of warring sides.. LOL.. ahaha.. the fun thing is.. even though i was in the line of fire.. i was not hit..!! lol.. damn funny..!! coz i was leaning into the net at the very edges of the field.. then i could feel the net vibrate as the shots peppered all around me.. but i was not hit.. LOL.. u know.. it's like those in cartoons where bullets are shot to the outline of the person's body.. yeah.. kinda like that.. LOL.. damn funny.. my friends were like "hey u havent got shot yet.."
lol

so i got the job. starting work this sunday. it's a criteria to work on weekends so my sundays are gone.. my archery is gonna progress to a crawl.. ouh well.. without the money.. i can't buy archery stuff.. and no money, no honey.. LOL..

think i'm gonna buy a paintball mask..

this sport looks like fun.. it's even shown on ESPN..

maybe i could take up tournament paintball to destress from archery eh..?

maybe.. we'll see..

all the best to my new job..

2009-06-02T10:50:00.000+08:00

Adidas Sundown Marathon 2009.

my first marathon. didn't do it so well. But i completed it..!!

Met up with BK and Sam and sam's friend before going over to the start point. Lots of people man. Many many. I was nervous. My first marathon, of course i'm nervous.

At gun time. So it started. took some walk-time before i even reached the starting line. LOL. there were that many people. Passed the start line, jogged at my own pace. Eventually lost BK and Sam. lol. too many people and too many overtaking.

Didn't go to the 1st aid station as it was jam-packed. Saw sam there though. that means he's on my pace. Met him at the second aid station too, when i was going out and he was just arriving. Aid stations are every 2km.

So from changi it was, all the way down to east coast park. And after a few aid stations and past 16km. I had the urge to shit. Like OMG..!! i needed to shit in the middle of a marathon..!!! think it was the 100plus, my body can't take the normal 100plus drink. It will irritate my bowels. and that's where i found myself.. irritated bowel with the urge to shit.. i thought i could hold i back.. but by the turn of that cablewakeboarding pool i couldn't hold it back anymore.. it had to go.. LOL.. so i increased my pace and widened my stride as i searched for a toilet. LOL. The worst thing is.. everytime i see a toilet up front.. the route deviates from it..!! Eventualy i found one.. think past the 18km mark.. LOL.. ran 2km in search of a toilet.. lucky not full.. wah.. spent like 30minutes in there.. think sam and BK should have passed me by now..

Got out. got ready to run. was starting off until i felt a sudden sharp familiar pain in my right knee.. slowed down my pace.. but by the turn at the 22km mark.. i couldn't run anymore.. it was torturing.. the pain in my knee. i duno how to describe the pain.. it's like everytime u lift ur leg up to that bent angle to propel forward there will be a sharp pain at my knee joint.. feels like someone is ripping my leg of by my knee.. really hurts like mad.. So i walked the rest of the way.. that's like 20km of walking..

by then i already resigned myself to the fate that i cannot continue to run. it really hurts like mad.. and i have to go shopping with kai the next morning.. lol.. i walked with a limp as i tried NOT to bend my right knee.. so i was kind of like a jerry fox but with no prosthetic leg.. ahaha. so i walked the rest of the way.. the bridges were no help.. the long winding roads seemed like forever.. the boardmarkers indicating the distance seemed further and further each time i passed one. it was horrendous.. i saw a guy pull out to the ambulance.. think thats it for him, and i wondered if i should do the same. but i didn't.. i want that finisher's tshirt..!! in order to do that.. i have to FINISH this.. some idiotic resolve in me asked me to continue even if i have to drag my body to the finish line. And so i did.. NOT drag my body to the finish line lar.. but finish the race in no matter wat condition i was in..

*SIgh*.. watching the morning sun come up was like a bane for me.. i knew i had passed 6hours into the run.. by then BK and Sam should have finished it..

Eventually through pain.. i completed the damn thing with a time of 8hours and 8minutes.. lol.. 22km of running, 20km of walking.. more like sundown walk-a-thon for me.. lol..

oh well it was a great experience.. with a bad timing, it would be easier to break my PB..

till the next sundown..

2009-05-29T22:54:00.000+08:00

Graduation.. graduation..

uber camwhoring session.. right from the beginning (i got my pic taken when i was putting on my gown, the pic is on SP website graduation 2009 session 10).. till the end of the procession.

Pics are on FB.

Went out with my class to orchard, watched terminator salvation and just.. walk walk.. LOL..

Sundown.. tmr..

2009-05-25T14:40:00.001+08:00

Come to think of it..
I'm thinking much more of sundown than my graduation which happens earlier.. LOL..
XDXD

2009-05-22T00:47:00.000+08:00

let's see.. let's see..
HOLY SHIT..!!!
My last entry was on the 24th of March..!!
that's like almost 2 months ago..!!

okay.. okay.. sorry sorry.. i apologise for the very long absence.. shall compensate with a recap on wat went on in my life during the past 2 months..

hmm.. let's see.. where to start..

Oh ya..

Training for sundown.. I've been keeping myself fit lately.. gym on mondays.. tuesdays running.. thursdays running.. Did tempo runs when running.. did like 21km worth of distance running around jurong west stadium track. I just can't seem to find a suitable route to run long distance in the west side of singapore.. it's either i have to get to the start of the run which is ridiculous coz i have to carry my wallet and hp, i don't run with them. so i resort to running many circles around the track. So tuesday 21km.. thursday another 21km (i think).. usually i don't run much on thursdays.. ehehehe.. kinda lazy.. but yeah.. i do run.. eheheheh..

then weekends.. as usual.. archery training.. lots and lots of archery.. just the huha of getting the clubshirt and those buggers who didn't order and want the shirt. I had to pay the shirts off purely on the money that those ordered gave. So it was hard to get for those buggers who never ordered. Lucky the shirt guy was nice enough to take another order without much of a price increase. the next batch was an extra $4 to the original $20. Then there comes the problem of those who ordered another size and found out that the size was too big and wanted to get a smaller size. Oh well. Done and dusted with the shirts.. those who dont have.. too bad then.. wait for next batch.. Later did i realise that the clubshirt is exactly the same as one of those ITE shirts.. O.O...
Hope they allow a change of shirt design the next time out.. LOL..

Oh ya.. Birthday chalet.. Christine's birthday chalet.. Went shopping with kailin 3 days before.. Spent most of the time talking really.. LOL.. But i already had something in mind.. So it was easy.. Just walk around (while talking) and keep an eye out for it.. lol.. i seem to have not bad of a taste for bags.. Kailin liked the bag too.. LOL.. but no... it's for christine.. lol.. and during this weekend.. after this weekend.. i shall never share presents ever again.. no matter how much it would cost me to individually buy a present.. i will never share a present ever again.. if i would to buy someone a present, it would be meaningful coz it's what i believe that the person would appreciate.. plus.. i don't have to change my mind on the product being not suitable for the "age" birthday.. I choose special presents for the occasion and i trust my choice.. and after this.. i repeat again.. i shall never share presents again.. period..

and so.. during this month of april.. i had a job interview.. wwwoooo... yeah.. a job interview for the position of crew at Haagen Dazs.. so i brought my classmates along with me to the interview.. and.. out of the 4 of us who went.. 3 of us got the job.. dunno how dominic screwed up his interview.. LOL.. it was damn simple..
Ok so i got the job.. had to don this gay assed uniform.. really.. it's gay assed.. the collar is so damn gay.. and i have to use my own white shoes..

Training.. yes.. i have to train.. learn how to scoop icecream and all that.. training was at the kiosk outside hilton hotel.. really liked the place there. but the downside.. it's damn hot.. most customers i got were foreigners.. so they were very polite.. so no problems for me in this section.. just my scooping.. i scoop small balls.. LOL.. so after 3 days of training. i got posted to my designated outlet which is a new outlet at wisma.. My first official day of work also happens to be the same weekend as SP Open.. which is kinda sad. i can't participate in it.. i could take leave.. but it would be ridiculous to take leave on my first day of work right..? so didn't participate.. and my teammates ended up with no team.. As i see it, i'll take it as a good thing.. i was not ever ready for the competition, so i wouldn't do so badly at it that i would crashed out in it.. so it was good not to go..
And my first day of work.. i didnt spend it at wisma.. i spent it at centrepoint instead. there was a mixup of personnel so i had to go to centrepoint to cover for someone.. at centrepoint.. wwooo.. i'm certainly most grateful i moved over to centrepoint on my first day.. firstly, the situation at wisma was damn rushed.. many orders coming in for both takeaway and dine in.. and not to mention a pile-up of unwashed dishes too much that i had to manually wash the stuff, before i was asked to move over to centrepoint.. at centrepoint, the SIC (store I/C) there was great, she treated me well.. and the kitchen crew were not bad too.. a couple of china girls.. who further taught me proper methods of scooping and levelling the icecream.. i found their techniques very easy to carry out and so stuck with their methods.

So second day of work.. i got posted to help out at hilton instead.. dunno why.. began to hate my work coz i was told to transfer around like somekind of mistreated animal.. oh well.. just did it.. since it was hilton.. it was back to my training place.. so it was slack coz i had to do night shift..

the next day was at wisma.. finally.. 100% at wisma.. night shift again..since it was a sunday.. not many customers come so late.. so with having work.. my training for sundown was interrupted.. i was desperately trying my best to avoid weekends.. weekends got lots of customers and also i have archery.. so avoid weekends..

had CCA drive on one of my off days.. so met up with kailin and christine in school.. around 4pm.. they went off shopping at tampinesone and i was left at school.. a big change for the past cca drives.. this year.. we managed to get in more girls..

meanwhile.. in my job.. it was really taking a toll on me.. in terms of transport fare of course.. the fee of travelling from orchard to pioneer station is like wow.. $4 spent one day on transport.. pain.. pain.. damn pain.. so i was already thinking of quitting.. but i love the job.. i like my colleagues.. i like my lovely 'master'.. the job's real great.. but the transport fare really kills.. and to make things worse.. i hurt my wrist scooping too much hard icecream so inevitably.. i resigned.. damn.. i liked the job..

so job over..

SPAC FO Camp..!! WWWWOOOO...!!!! my first camp as an alumni..!! feels really different.. really does..

helper.. so help this help that.. mostly slack slack.. but mostly spent time with the Shibuya group coz i had to cover for kokwei.. so i have a group to call my own.. so lead the group together with june.. great group.. really great group.. super ON..!! super enthu..!! LIKE ME..!! KEKEKEKEKKEKE...!!!
nightwalk.. the pinnacle of the camp.. bloody hell.. i never knew dispatching could be damn damn boring.. but nevertheless..
ehehehe..
dunno how to put this.. my stories.. and my interaction with the year 1s.. is far better then james.. just to be honest really.. never have i seen ppl get their heads of the table from a sleeping position and listen to me the moment i grabbed hold of the loudhailer.. ehehehe.. it was nice.. they were nice.. but the nightwalk.. too damn long.. LOL...
3rd day of camp.. telematch.. me, nizam and aisa were incharge ot the basha soapy slide.. lol.. we were having our own fun just keeping the basha wet.. LOL.. and we get free slides.. lol..
camp over.. my group won overall champs..!!! overall man..!! of course lah..!! with a person like me co-leading the group.. of course get first..!! LOL..
but wat really made my day at the time spent during this camp is hearing a couple of guys talk about me when i walked past them.. they were saying like they liked me coz i did things in a smooth way and i was cool.. LOL.. I'm cool..!!! AHAHAHHA
I'M COOL..!!!

and that's a short recap on my life in the absence of my blog.. LOL.. wat and ending..

Okay.. so now.. graduation is next week in the harry potter gown as well as sundown marathon.

2009-03-24T20:28:00.000+08:00

WWWWOOOOOO...!!!!

i just did a 10.5km run. That's a quarter of a marathon.
From Jurong West Park Connector to the traffic junction before Jurong East MRT station along Boon Lay Way.
That's 5.25km according to mapmyrun (hope its roughly accurate).
And another 5.25km back.
So that totals up to 10.5km.

I ran it in 1hour and 15minutes. Slow. Yes I know that.
But i've never run that far before, so this timing would be a rough gauge for myself.
I shall shave off 10minutes (and hopefully more) in the next run.

i didn't feel so shitty and worn out like during the napfa test.
i couldn't imagine it man.. i actually completed it and still had strength in me..
Looks like Jeff Galloway was right. Walk breaks do work. But i did a 1:1 ratio of walk breaks. That's not good. I shall try 2:1 the next time. That'll be next week.
Yeah I can do it. I just did it. I can do it again. Yeah.
The run was fun. I almost got shit-ted on by a flock of pigeons. Hate them.
Lakeside mrt. ooooo. YJC girls. so upped the tempo and ran faster. LOL. dunno why they're there. But girls in uniform and short skirts is more than enough to spur me on faster.
On the way back too. Sporty girls in them FBT shorts.. Oooo.. I like.. I run fast.. LOL

It really really felt so good. i just dunno how to describe it. ahahahah. it really is good.
You people should try it. Run 10.5km. it's fun.
I'll use my blog as a substitue training log.
Record down what i feel and how i did my runs.

On thursday, it shall be tempo runs.

I can do this.

2009-03-22T23:57:00.000+08:00

typical sunday morning,

breakfast with my extended family when --

Grandpa: Hafiz lepas ni pergi memanah eh..?
Mum: Ape lagi dier. asyik memanah je..
Grandma: Abeh biler nak dipanah hati..?

how am i suppose to answer that..?

2009-03-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

the holidays aren't turning out like what i would expect it to be.

Supposed to find work, but it ain't that easy. Setting aside the recession, it's the holiday period for all the polytechnics and with that a portion of those students which may number to hundreds are also finding part-time jobs. I really need the money. Somehow now that i have studies aside for the next 2 years, i have the urge to splurge (whoo..!! cool..!! rhymes..!! ), yeah just to buy stuff. I need equipment, i want new clothes, i want new shoes, i want new glasses.

Currently, i'm spending my days training 5 days a week shooting, and more shooting. Occasionally going to the gym on monday mornings or days that i choose to take a break from shooting.

I'm a bad boy. Naughty naughty. I haven't been training for sundown marathon yet. And the 12 week marathon program needed to train competitively has been wasted. well. i just realised it's not that bad. i have 11 weeks. i can work something out. hopefully.

No no no no.. that's not the right attitude. I spent the past week with good reading up on how to work my body up for the run. yeah. plus i went gyming a couple of times. yes yes. that's more like it. i didn't spend the past week running, but i spent it conditioning my body. getting my physique up. yes yes. that's more like it. yes. that's good.

I shall start training. Not on the shooting, but more of the running. yesh. i shall start the program. yes i shall.

2009-03-05T16:44:00.005+08:00

And so another class outing to sentosa.
Some differences, more people and wet weather.
But the weather did nothing to dampen our spirits.

On the new tram going to siloso beach.

First and foremost as always.. A game of volleyball.
nevertheless fun when we're a bunch of any-all-how, just-get-the-ball-over-the-net-on-the-other-side amateurs.
LOL.

HOT GIRLS..!!
on the court opposite. so my team was directly facing them.
and that proved to be a real test of concentration.
LOL.
but damn..!!
the girls were HOT..!!

After that some took to the waters to cool off. or some others (Like me) stayed ashore to play beach soccer.
Goddamn it was fun..
lol.
the fastest game of soccer i've ever played in my life.
sibeh tired.
with lots of sand rolling and sand thrown into each other's faces.
LOL.
Damn, ricky's one hell of a player. No wonder he's in the school team, he's damn fast.
but lucky he was on my team.. so u can call my team imba.. LOL.

hafiz: Andy help me wash off the sand off my back. Thx

Played a special type of monkey game in the water.
Whoever threw the ball and the ball touched the water before ending up in the person's hand would be the monkey, together with the person the ball was thrown too.
So there were 2 monkeys at any one time.
Damn fun..!!
Extreme Fun..!!

so it came to pass. day turned to evening.
and we all went off.

apparently they like to grab each other.

Dinner at KFC,
the 'tradition' after every class outing.
LOL..!!

Till then.
we'll see each other again in May for the Graduation Ceremony.

and i still love pioneer station.

2009-02-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

GRADUATE LO...!!!

And so it came to pass..
3 years of my life in poly..
Gone in a blink of an eye..
i just couldn't believe it..
it's happening too fast..
next thing u know i'll be semibald serving the nation..

there i was, with my classmates, outside the examination venue, last paper..
the culmination of 3 years of education. all down to this one moment. this last moment. damn. i could still rmb the last time i did my last O level paper. the magnitude of the moment kept my fingers trembling..

there i was. down with my paper. had a window seat. how lovely. so sat there and basically just stared out the window into the darkness of the evening. yeah. last paper in poly was a goddamned night paper. lucky it wasn't the last day of the exam week.

oh well. paper done.
3 years done.
poly done.

went to marina square swenson's with my class.
gonna have a meeting on tuesday to sentosa.

2009-02-18T01:54:00.004+08:00

ok.. so.. exams are here..
so this is a study break..
so i did something that's been done by alot of ppl..
i was bored so why not just do it..
and the results.. OMG..

1. Put your music on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

- my thoughts on what came out.

*****************
IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Greenlight by john legend
- ehk??

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Dangerous - Akon ft Kardinal Offishall
- oh yeah.. dangerous baby.. i'm dangerous..

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
down with the sickness - disturbed
- Oh so true.. lol..

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
fixation on the darkness - randy orton theme
- lol.. don't know what the hell this means..

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
womanizer - Brittney Spears
- OMFG..!!!!

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
King of My World - Chris Jericho Theme
- ego ego ego..!!

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
chapter 4 - avenged sevenfold
- lol.. which module..?

WHAT IS 2+2?
underneath the gun - limp bizkit
- bang..? o.O

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
haunted - disturbed
- LOL.. maybe the person is a ghost..? i dunno.. lol

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
twisted transistor - Korn
- LOL.. wat does this suppose to mean..?

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
All i ever wanted - Basshunter
- yeah.. all i ever wanted.. but always never get.. how..?

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
what i've done - Linkin Park
- yepp yepp.. what i've done now will determine what i'll be when i grow up..

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
let's go - trick daddy ft lil jon & twista
- go where..? lol.. heaven i hope..

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
bass creator - basshunter
- LOL.. Techno..!!

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
power ranger theme song
- LOL.. she can come and rescue me anytime baybeh..!!

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
no more sorrow - Linkin Park
- lol.. reconcilation..?

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
one & only - timbaland ft patrick stump
- oooo.. the one and only secret..

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
10000fists - disturbed
- lol.. 10000/2.. that's 5000 friends.. don't think i have that many

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
i can walk on water - basshunter
- lol.. i become a ghost..?

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
giving in - Linkin Park
- yeah oh yeah..

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
bat country - avenged sevenfold
- i dunno..

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
maneater - nelly furtado
- lol.. i'm not a cannibal..!! i've never eaten anyone..!!

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Indestructible - disturbed
- OH YEAH..!!!! OH HELL YEAH..!!!

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
return the favor - keri hilson ft timbaland
- i dunno wat this is suppose to mean..

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
paranoid - black sabbath
- LOL..!!! maybe they do..!!

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
The Night - disturbed
- i love the night too.. nice to sleep..

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Lay Down - Priestess
- then how to sleep..??

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
the curse - disturbed
- maybe i'm cursed.. maybe maybe..

WHAT WOULD YOU SAY, WHEN YOU MEET YOUR BOSS?
never too late - three days grace
- perfect for assignments and projects..!!

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Eat you alive - limp bizkit

Okay done.. LOL.. some of the things are really shocking.. LOL..

2009-02-14T21:37:00.004+08:00

Suddenly.
I find myself in immense admiration for the new W&W TF Apecs riser.

It looks far more appealing as compared to its 'forward-TEC' predecessor, the Xpert.
And has an interesting adjustable Torque Free System.
Should i consider a change?
Way too many Inno risers around.
And given the butt ugly look of this riser, i doubt anyone will buy it.
KEkekekekek.

Just a thought.

2009-02-09T01:00:00.000+08:00

I've somehow managed to develop a quick turnover stride..
that means speedwork and tempo training after exams to get me back into fitness..
need to find that marathon stride.. maybe i'll stick to this one that i have found.. or if i can develop a faster one would be great..
i still rmb running 2.4km under 10minutes using this turnover back in sec 4.. PB.. 9:43 IIRC. it was great.. i still can rmb the feeling.. i was full of energy even after the run..
after my papers..
it's 13 weeks to adidas sundown..
it's running time..!!

should i buy a new pair of shoes..? tee hee.. XD

2009-02-03T22:46:00.000+08:00

Ouh well..

damn sad..
Once i saw her and him.
i could feel nothing inside.
the heart that was once there is gone again.
the agony.
barely an arm's length away in a crowded train
caressing in each other's arms.
oh the agony.

ouh well. that's life for me.
on the bright side.
i found an mp4 player.
And most importantly -
i found a place to buy Runner's World Magazine.
of all the major bookstores in singapore.
I found it in Harris in the new Jurong Point extension.

and also.
Andrei Arshavin is an Arsenal player now.

2009-01-30T19:05:00.002+08:00

The reason I know..
That I am STRICKEN
And Can't let you go..
There's no Hope..
And I Know..

and you were in yellow..

hey it rhymes..!!

and i got thirsty al....!!!

2009-01-29T23:47:00.003+08:00

I just can't get you outta my head..
Girl, you're all that i think about..
And you were in green..
And i'm running out of time..

looks like i made the right colour scheme this year..

2009-01-21T22:55:00.005+08:00

okay okay.. so i'm doing it..
something which i don't do..
egged by cindy to do it..
16 random facts, habits and goals of myself.
Ok.. here goes..

I...

1. have a PES B status due to being underweight..!! OMG..!!
2. never get sick of eating the same food all the time.
3. have fangs (yes i do.. come and see for yourself)
4. am attracted to cute, sporty girls with nice legs in short shorts and jerseys
5. miss soccer so so so mucchh..!!!
6. love endurance runs.. joining adidas sundown marathon 2009
7. like Disney's stitch.. u know that blue alien.. experiment 626.
8. love to lip-synch songs and mime the lyrics out.
9. love being crazy coz it's liberates me.
10. hate posers.
11. love Arsenal Football Club.. Go Gunners..!!
12. hate my laptop which is 3 years old, freaking 14 inches wide and weighs 2.7kg.
13. hate travelling with my family.. they're so noisy..
14. my tongue will stick out when i'm engrossed in something..
15. just LOVE being CRAZZYY...
16. want to SKYDIVE..!! BUNGEE JUMP..!! HANG GLIDE..!! BASE JUMP..!!.. just simply anything and everything that has an adrenaline rush..!!

Ok done.. Happy.?
Am not gonna tag other people..
hmpf..

ehehehehe..

ta ta..

2009-01-16T19:40:00.000+08:00

So.. this ain't the end --
I saw you again, today.
The way you were staring at me.
I felt something in my chest -- beating.

2009-01-15T21:03:00.000+08:00

The most disappointing day of 2009...!!!
take note of the date.. 15th JAN...!!
pain pain pain pain..

2009-01-14T23:48:00.003+08:00

0okay..

spinnovex pics..

Me and my FYP partner falina and my project..

Some of my classmates who happen to be in the same project room.

My "bodyguards" LOL..!! I just love this pic man..
Last minute i changed pose.. AHAHAHA..

Me and my other classmates before the closing ceremony..

2009-01-12T23:21:00.003+08:00

alright..

So SPINNOVEX is done.
Not as what i expected it to be.
Namely cause in the previous years, i've been blinded by projects in the tentage.
Likely the same goes for those who don't entirely know what SPINNOVEX contains.
Oh well.
Didn't get to see as much girls as i would want to. XD
Did, however, manage to turn some heads.
Pictures will be up as soon as i get them..

2009-01-09T23:48:00.003+08:00

Hmm..

Adidas Sundown Marathon.
42.195km.
30th May 2009(11.59pm on 29th)

Anyone wanna run with me..?
*edit: i'm running with vanga.. but anyone wanna join me stil can..

Early Bird Registration ($60) by 31st Jan

2009-01-02T21:24:00.001+08:00

New Year..

New Colour scheme..

It shall be..

GREEN & YELLOW & BLACK

2008-12-27T23:50:00.001+08:00

Thou shall NOT meddle with thou bow grip and add epoxy putty to it.

2008-12-20T05:57:00.000+08:00

All alone going into the christmas break..

Happy Holidays everyone.

2008-12-01T16:53:00.001+08:00

On a lighter note..

Send your own ElfYourself eCards

disco disco..

2008-11-25T18:07:00.000+08:00

I learned a new word today: Sizzlingly

other than that..
rebecca is gonna get some bling..

2008-11-18T13:38:00.003+08:00

Scenario: A conversation with old friends on clubbing.

Friend 1: Guys.. Zoukout coming soon u guys up for it..?

Friends2, 3, 4: Yah yah yah.. let's go ah.. CLUBBING..!! Girls man..!! Girls..!! (starts to get excited of the notion of going clubbing)

Friend 5: Yeah man.. been a few months since I went clubbing. miss the deep bass beat and, ya guys, the girls.. in them skimpy clothes..

GUYS: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH (lots of laughter)

Friend 3: eh hafiz. long time since we last met up. Have u gone clubbing before..? Don't worry ah.. God can close one eye.. go clubbing lah..
Friend 4: ZoukOut at sentosa.. c'mon lah fiz..

Hafiz: Aiyah.. clubbing.. no big deal ah.. i go clubbing every weekend..

Friends 1, 2, 3, 4, 5: HUH?!?! u go clubbing every weekend..?!?!?

Friend 2: walao.. hafiz..!! go clubbing never jio.. like this sia call friend..

Friend 5: yalah fiz.. what sia u.. which club u go to..?

Hafiz: Ouh.. Archery Club lor.. training every weekend wat..

XDXDXD..

bern is coming back this weekend..