WARNING:
The following entry contains explicit use of vulgarities. If offended please do not carry on reading any further..



FUCK OFF..!! FUCK OFF..!! FUCK OFF..!!

FUCK YOU..!! FUCK YOU..!! FUCK YOU..!!

DON'T YOU FUCKING TALK TO ME..!!

I FUCKING HATE YOU..!!

KTHANXBAI..

XDXDXD

hey hey hey..
wat's up ya'll...

been a very very long time since i last updated.. 10 weeks ago was my last entry.. having said that.. in those 10 weeks.. 9 weeks of it have been spent on the island of Tekong for my BMT in the army for my mandatory NS.

And now that i have passed out.. i have plenty of time on my hands for an entry..

i definitely alot to say and describe in vivid detail of all the times and activities i have spent during those 9 weeks.. but.. if i really did.. then this would be a very very long entry..

i shall try my best to keep this short and simple, and sweet.

I was from Apache Company, Platoon 4, Section 1. It's in School 1, Ladang Camp for those who are familiar with the island. My bunk is on the 5th floor. So it's kinda a pain in the ass to climb 5 floors everytime. But i can see that my thighs are now much more muscular and well-defined. XDXD

It's a great company with great commanders.

I made many new friends during my time here. Friends i believe will be there for me coz we went thru shit together and we went thry fun times together..

My section is crazy i tell u.. there is not a single day or night where the noise level of laughter is low.. there's always laughing and crazy antics.

And my platoon too.. We are the platoon that's extreme.. the treatment that we get are on both sides of the extremity level. Meaning, if we do good, we really get extreme good treatment.. But if we screw things up, then the treatment we get would be extreme physical punishment.. And.. i kinda like it.. XDXD

I have been trained in many ways both physical and mentally.. and in addition to that, trained in military skills like weapons handling etc.. But the fitness part is the thing i believe have been most enlightening to me.. since i love sports.. the fitness activities have really enriched me with new ways and new techniques to enhance myself physically..

and of course.. the military skills learned is an enlightening thing too coz it's something that's only exclusive to the army..

by far.. to me.. the toughest part of these 9 weeks is the week spent in the jungle of Tekong for field camp. The most grueling outdoor experience i have ever encountered.. it was really a test of my mental toughness and threshold level to take punishment..

I don't know whether to call it a good thing or a bad thing but for the whole 5 days of the field camp.. It rained every single day of it.. Every single fucking day of it.. ( LOL.. finally a vulgarity )..
The good thing about it is that the training is cut short and such..

But the bad thing is.. We're outdoors..!!! Everything is wet, damp soggy and wet and damp and soggy.. it's useless keeping dry.

And the mud.. Oh My God the mud.. The Mud..!! The fucking Mud..!! it's not those mud that u get from water logged fields and such.. those are nothing as compared to the muddy conditions i was in.. the mud was so clayey.. so thick.. it's like those orange thick clayey soil u see in those constructions sites or those orange soil that u see when they replant grass.. the mud fucking sticks to ur boots that walking is such a chore.. Mud fucking becomes ur friend.. it's literally everywhere.. from underneath ur fingernails, on ur face, to ur socks, on ur clothes, in ur hair ( or wat's left of it ), even up ur buttcrack..!! really.. i'm not kidding..!!

and they made us cry..!!! ( shall leave this to a personal explanation if curious to know.. )

I get to go for live firing and cool stuff like that.. cool and fun things to do like the SOC..!! LOL..!! My FS taught us during SOC that if we should do any of the stations.. we do it like a Ninja..!! So much to the extent that everything that we do that's considered stylish or acrobatic or flamboyant.. we do it " Like a Ninja.. "
But really.. SOC is damn fun.. it's like.. the military playground.. sadly though.. for my company.. we had to cancel SOC 3 times due to the weather..

and of course.. the ever popular question whenever anyone mentions Tekong.. Tales of the supernatural.. i have had my experiences.. ooooo.. BOO..!!! but dowan tell u.. at least not here..

think i shall stop here for now.. should u readers want to know anything else more in further detail and animated explanation.. just meet up with me..

and right now.. i'm just waiting for my posting.. 18 dec.. that's the date..

1 week to enlistment..

Kinda excited.. yeah i said it right.. EGGSS-cited..

anyways.. fasting month over.. Celebrated Hari Raya.. got to finally shoot without feeling so damn tired and thirsty..
Greenpacket collection was on a high in terms of value which is rather surprising coz isn't it suppose to be an economic downturn or something like that? I got lots of packets with 10buck notes inside..

WooHoo..!!! Money..!! Money..!! Money..!! Must be Funny..!! In a rich man's world..

Managed to break 150bucks on the first day.. aint that cool..? Not anymore.. the money's gone.. LOL.. kinda a big spender.. spent most it on food.. yeah food.. after fasting month must savour all those delicacies that have been missing for a month..

well.. on the contrary to my previous post..
i have found something to do besides all those activities that i listed down in my previous post.
Little did I know that this activity i have newly founds isn't that new at all. In fact i've been dealing with it all my life ever since i was little.

Cards -- yea that's the new activity and it has to do with cards. From DragonBall Z to Pokemon to WWE Raw Deal to Magic: The Gathering.. Just the list of card collection i've ever had since i was young..

From the 20cent a card turn-the-knob-card-dispensing-machine in DragonBall Z..

To starter deck with tokens in Pokemon.

Buying and selling cards to complete a superstar's arsenal of superstar-specific cards.

And Magic: The Gathering. One of the best card games i've ever played. It's so great a card game that you can actually learn from it. To the point that a deck can be the personification of the owner. And that every single card has it's own worth no matter how common or uncommon or rare it is. But unfortunately i cannot continue with this wonderful game. Few ppl play it nowadays and those that are, are into buying cards to make their decks strong. Which beats the whole idea of creating a deck out of watever u have and being able to be good with it. And also beats the idea of having booster packs if they're just gonna buy the cards anyway..

anyways.. the "new" card game that i'm into now is *drumroll*

Normal Playing Cards..

u know.. like poker cards? thirteen ranks of each of the four French suits, diamonds (♦), clubs (♣), hearts (♥) and spades (♠)..? Those Normal Playing Cards lah..

well.. i have taken up the art of card manipulating, card tricks and card flourishes.

doing so have opened me up to a world of playing cards that i've never seen before and i am interested in collecting many different variations in playing cards.

Variations in the playing cards can be from the colours of the card, the design and colour of the back, even the design of the Face cards, and most importantly (to me) the texture.
Texture can range from the common plastic coated finish, to air cushion, to linoid finish, to UV500 air flow..

sounds cool huh?
most certainly is..

Boredom reigns thick in the air..
An unbearable ennui..
Mists of uncertainty and weariness clouds the surface..
Vast empty plains of inactivity..

That is the -- Half-baked Autonomous Frenzied Insidious Zone..

Sounds creepy huh..?
And a boring place..
In case you haven't notice. the acronym of the place I just mentioned spells out __________.
I'm actually bored enough to find words for each letter.

Trying my utmost best to keep myself from just lazing around infront of the tv or doze off on my mattress of a bed..
And yes.. i am freaking bored out of my life..

well let's list down what i can do..
Bow training - it gets tiring after awhile and the fasting ain't helping..
watching tv - nothing interesting to watch..
reading - hmm..

yeah reading.. I haven't done any serious reading in a long time.. the last time i ever read something worth my good read was Dan Brown's Deception Point. But now.. now that JP2 has an interesting bookstore called San's Bookshop which also rents books out. It has a very wide range of novels from fantasy to sci-fi. Fantasy & sci-fi.. two categories of genres that I have had trouble looking for in the past.

Fantasy -- Strange for a guy like me to be reading fantasy but it's a certain type of fantasy that i'm interested in. The fantasy universe of Magic: The Gathering which is a card game which somehow the makers have integrated storylines into the game expansions. And in the past, i have had trouble searching for the books. But i found them -- in San's Bookshop. But they're rather incomplete, at least they have them.

Sci-fi -- Boys will be boys i have to admit, and there's no limit to the imagination of a boy that reaches into the outer limits of known Space and beyond the stars. From the futuristic Power Rangers to the Transformers. Nothing ceases to amaze us boys when it comes to vehicles and weapons of the future.
Adding on to that, what i want to bring into particular attention is the world of Warhammer 40,000, a popular tabletop game that became so popular it got marketed into other forms such as card games, the thing that leapt the game to stardom -- a computer game by the title: Dawn of War and of course in the form of novels. And again you can find them in San's Bookshop and surprisingly in order.

What attracts me to this world of Warhammer 40,000 ( the 40,000 refers to the human race 31,000 years in the future ) is the gothic fiction. It tells of the human race set in a distant future where Man has united as one on earth and now transcend the borders of known Space. And Man has become some sort of an occupational force, going from world to world to conquer them and bring them under the rule of Man. And they do the conquering by means of Space Marines, giant, genetically enhanced super soldiers with world-destroying firepower and unswerving fanatical loyalty to the Emperor of Man. It's just very nice and beyond description for me to properly express how i like it very much. There's bound to be bloodshed ( somehow i realise that destroying and killing things seems to be the enjoyment of us boys ), there's brotherhood, faith, corruption, betrayal, and even the mystics of the unknown.. it's really great i tell u..

And there is a rather famous series of books that have been published on the Warhammer Universe and it's basically the history of how the warhammer universe came to be what it is that we see in the video game. It's called the Horus Heresy and it's a series of novels dating back to 2006 and still publishing material on it. Even though the basis of the idea of how the Horus Heresy played out and ended has been made known. The range of novels has only covered up to a certain part.

I've started on the series in late july but due to work haven't got into spending time reading it. But now that i've stopped working, i can continue with the rest of the series. So far they've published 13 books. I've just finished reading book 2 hence the sudden expressiveness of my boredom, waiting for money to buy the next book.



woah. didn't know i would write this long.. lol.

Phiten..

Some may have heard of it.. It's a well-known brand of product which includes items like necklaces, wristbands and the like..

An excerpt from Phiten's website -- Phiten products work with your body’s energy system, helping to regulate and balance the flow of energy throughout your body. Proper energy balance helps to alleviate discomfort, speed recovery, and counteract fatigue. Athletes find that they tire less easily and recover faster from intense physical activity.The Phild Processed material regulates the body's energy flow by stablizing ions. Phiten products stabilize the energy, permitting a greater flow of energy with less waste. Fatigue sets in later and recovery time is shortened.

However, fatigue is not caused by an imbalance of ions.. So it's not that scientifically justified.. But i decided to buy one and try it out for myself.. And..my verdict on it is that no matter how scientifically unjustified it is.. somehow, someway.. it DOES work.. it really does.. i used mine during archery and somehow.. i'm not that easily tired anymore.. i dunno whether it's a psychological thing but i'm glad that it works -- i don't care psychologically or not.. I now even use it whenever i'm tired and won't feel tired anymore after about a few minutes wearing it.. i'm not trying to vouch for this item.. i'm just giving my two cents on it actually working..

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moving on..

i've been feeling kinda down lately.. i dunno why.. losing my appetite.. losing an interest in almost everything.. kinda feel easily upset about everything.. i dunno wat's wrong.. kinda emo..
maybe it's the fasting month coming up real soon.. maybe.. could be..

I've been giving some thought over myself for the past 2 weeks. i realise that my life has sort of kinda reached a stalemate over the past few months leading up to my enlistment date.. there's like a stagnant moment in my life.. the occasional paintball game, cage outings and archery trainings are injecting some life into my otherwise staled life.. I know most ppl would say "Hey why don't u just go out..? Go out on a date or something.. "..

Well i do go out sometimes, even to orchard by my lonesome.. but that just doesn't seem to change anything.. Dates - pffttt.. i don't have that much girl friends to go out with.. most of them are attached or newly attached.. or rather pretty busy with their own dates.. but surprisingly i managed to get some 'dates' over the past 2 weeks.. i'm not romantically involved with anyone so it's not that big.. it may be big in terms of catching up on things, new things in their lives that they want to share or new things in my life that they wanna know.. being on these dates.. or rather.. the days leading up to these dates.. i would be pondering on myself as an invidual.. as a single.. "When will i have someone to call my own..? ".. i dunno.. many ppl ask me.. and i tell them the same thing " No girl would want to start a relationship with a guy going into NS ".. simply said.. if u do come to think about it.. it does make sense and need no further explanation.. in addition to that.. i still don't understand much about the opposite gender.. in particular, these dates that i've had over the past 2 weeks..

Dates, in my opinion should be a fun time spent with someone.. laughing, joking, the occasional flirtatious quip, a time to get to know each other better, a dinner perhaps or even a movie, or, if among romantic individuals, holding hands, a nice warm cuddle or perhaps even a quick peck, and countless things to list down.. but the main idea would be having a great enjoyabe time with someone..
And in my opinion, proper dating etiquette would be to only be thinking about and collaborating with that particular person u're dating with..

These particular dates that i had really got me thinking.. i don't know whether i made a mistake or it's a lesson for me to learn.. but somehow, from these experiences, I've come to realise that I don't mean much to people who mean much to me.. there u go.. i said it.. that fact hit me the most hardest.. i felt totally lost.. it's like a part of me just tore away.. once again, i felt really hollow and empty inside..

another experience, or i would rather deem it as a mistake, that i learned is a rather complicated one.. I realised how timing can be so precious.. how its better to let someone know that u have feelings for that person and not take ur time to inform that person.. coz u never know that the moment u gather enough courage that person might be snapped up by somebody else.. and there goes ur chance.. and u'd have to wait -- a long time for another "right one" to come by..


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What a waste..
What a real damn waste..

If only the doctor i went to consult was much better at dispensing medication, i could have been playing in the mini RD challenge. In the end. i spent 2 days (thurs, fri) still having watery stool and abdominal pain.

So i went to the doctor's again on saturday morning, this time the doctor that i wanted to consult, that i should have consulted, was on duty. the main doctor, u know the one that runs the clinic. He's my family doctor.
On wednesday night, the doctor on duty was one of those 'fill-in' docs, u know those that fills in for the main doc when the main doc takes off.
So he (main doc) just gave me two packets of pills instead of the whopping 6 packets that the previous doc gave.

And guess wat. Those 2 packets of tablets worked wonders. After i downed them, i could feel the effects of it working. And now, i'm fully recovered from diarrhoea..

But it's not this diarrhoea thing that's the main highlight here.. it's the time wasted by it..

I could have enjoyed the best of two worlds..
Attend the RD mini challenge AND go for the archery camp..
it's really disappointing to miss out on the RD mini-challenge coz it's the closest i can get to a paintball competition before i enlist. Already Leg 3 of SPNS is being held on the 18th of October which i would still be in NS first-2-weeks-confinement. I don't see it being postponed to a later date coz of the management behind it concrete on the event date.. this is really just sad.. and the forum is alive with everyone posting about wat fun they had at the minichallenge..
I bet when i get back to work on wednesday, the ppl at RD would still be talking about it..

oh well.. it's done and over.. though it is kinda sad..


and the back aches bring back memories of a sweet past.

Damn sick right now..
Having diarrhoea.. which lead to dehydration which lead to an immense high fever.. goddamn never felt so 'good' before.. ahahah..

went to the doctor.. while sitting outside the clinic. there was this teenage boy in sec school uniform who did a fake sneeze in front of my face then said that he had H1N1.. fucking could have gotten out of my seat and knock him out cold, call the police and tell them that he's a public nuisance, inciting false information.. bloody fucker.. cursed him so much.. he's probaby in trouble or in some kind of pain right now.. ahahaha.. i feel so evil..

well.. this stupid turn of events is really making things difficult for me..
no work today. no money.
no money means not enough cash to buy paint coz i really wanted to play on the 25th for Jit's team.. then there's the training camp.. how am i suppose to pass the year1s their shirts..?
hopefully by tonight. i'll be well..